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Folk / Indie / Experimental

A Cut That Bled

A few months ago, it felt like eternity,
That I would be here drowning in my tears
Escaping all those years that Id been told Youd never leave
Lord You said Youd never leave me

I cut myself deeply
Not just physically, but internally
All for the sake of regret
Trying to forget that wed met

And Ive been here before
It all seems strangely familiar
My knees collapsing now face down on the floor
And all Your asking is for me to put my hand in Yours

To take me away from all this madness
You gave me Your life and I gave You mine all at the tender age of five
And I was ready, ready to lay it all out on the line
If You promised to catch me

I wish Id seen it before
I think my foot got stuck in that door I accidentally slipped through
Remember when I took a peak
Cause curiosity got the best of me

And now Im starting to see that this was all on me
My choices, because I was free (Im free)
There was no reason at all for me to take that fall
And lock the heavy deathtrap chains to my hands

So would You help me to forget the thought of being without You
I realize I cant make it on my own
Yes I knew it all along
I should never have tried to write my own song

I was surprised at the darkness of the cave in which I stepped in, but You allowed it to shape me
You showed me my calling, my belonging
And I felt Your Light inside of me, burning bright
I want the whole world to see

Then I ran away as if afraid of the flame and the passion growing ever stronger inside of me
Tried to make myself believe that You were never a friend to me
All those times Youd saved me LORD
Id try to make believe You abandoned me

When all the time so plain for me to see
So plain for You to see right through me
The longing for Your embrace
But I kissed Your face then turned and walked away

Hiding behind such a fake smile
Tearing so many apart
Poisoning myself with lies of emptiness
Causing the meaningless inside

Know of this that I write is mine
My playing church
Trying to survive on tasteless bread and bitter wine
Yet my life seemed so sweet in their eyes

I knew that I was not an antichrist
I knew I was with You and not him
Yet him did I try and praise; to him I tried to pray
Knowing he couldnt do a thing, but hurt me more than I can say

It was his eyes that drew me in
Followed by the welcoming grin
That looked to intriguing with pleasurable sin
He taught me lust for many things
All involving a cut that bled
And my heavy head was so lost
And my soul was mortified at what Id become

When You ran to me and broke my legs
For a moment I thought that I was dead and in my mind I saw what I was
The people I had strayed and some Id betrayed
What an empty picture portrayed

Then I saw in my heart what I am with You
I saw the Truth at its brightest that day (now everyday)
What I am and what I will become
Nothing matters without You
It was a meaningless chasing after the wind
And I was broken apart right there and right then

And as I recall all this I feel slightly amiss for a moment
Scared to think I could have missed You and stayed wallowing in my sin
And as You hit me upside the head for thinking such a thing
I see You smiling with Your hand upon me

You saved me
Yeah, You saved me
And Im completely Yours
So take me LORD and have Your will be done with me

And even though I still think about killing myself its not as often
And when I remember that YOU put me here for a reason
And Your strength runs through me I feel like I have a purpose
And a peaceful belonging comes from Your sweet words that fill me with joy and love
Gods unending Love, Your redeeming Love

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Hello lovely people! I love music and want to share it with the world. The name, This is for Yesterday, came from one of my favorite tv shows, As Time Goes By. This is for all the things that I meant to say, but didn't. That I should have done, but didn't do. This is for Yesterday. I write my songs to glorify God and to hopefully bless others. The songs that aren't spiritual are nonsense songs. Nonsense being one of the best senses to make. I hope that you enjoy my music!
Thanks for listening!!!
-_Elisabeth_(Psalm 116) -This is for Yesterday

I'm also really into photography. To check out some of my photos you can go to my listener page.
http://www.purevolume.com/listeners/writingregards

Also check out the band I'm in with my parents Broken Bread

September 26

An Important Question (or two) written by Andrew Schwab

An Important Question (or two)… Posted on July 17, 2008 Filed Under Andrew Schwab | First off, it’s been a little while since I posted, so for that I apologize. Second, forgive a musician for addressing a music topic. This is one blog where the responses are more important than the blog itself, so please respond below… So, this may be a bit of a trite topic, but something tells me it cannot be spoken of enough, especially right here, right now. As someone who has been a part of this industry for some time, I have watched the evolution of…pretty much everything that has to do with music in the last few years. And one thing I am noticing is that not only are things changing and changing fast, but they are changing at a faster rate. And never has there been such opposing poles in the music industry. On one side, there are fans–consumers–who have benefitted so much from recent trends. And by “benefits” I mean with the digital medium becoming more and more prominent, music listeners have increasingly cheaper and easier access to whatever music they want, whenever they want. It seems like there is nothing but upside on the surface in the current context of iTunes, MyZune, Torrents etc. You really can get music nowadays for next to nothing, and basically as much as you want. And we have so many cool toys these days to play it on! On the other side of the fence is the industry itself…the labels, the press, the producers, the publishers, the distributers, the radio stations, and of course, the bands. And everyone on that side of the fence has been whistling a different tune for quite some time. As music becomes cheaper, and as attention spans shorten with the accessibility to music, less and less revenue flows through the industry. This means less and less resources for developing new bands, for keeping bands afloat, and for keeping jobs in the industry. Plainly put, the whole thing is shrinking massively in a very short period of time, and it is becoming harder and hard for bands to do this for a living. It is becoming harder and harder for labels to sell music. And labels are executing worse and worse record deals for bands. People are finding it harder and harder to be a part of this beautiful medium because there just isn’t enough resources to make it possible. I myself am torn over the issue. On one side, I think this “implosion” (which will continue to feed on itself) will result in a desaturation of everything (less bands = a higher percentage of good bands, and FINALLY METALCORE/SCREAMO/CHUG/SQUEEL/BLASTBEAT/COOKIE MONSTER SCREAM/MONOTONE-SAME-NOTE-AS-EVERY-OTHER-BAND-CHORUS WILL END). I also love getting music at a cheap price as a consumer. But I also love packaging. I love holding artwork in my hands and reading lyrics. And it saddens me that physical albums are “slowly going the way of the buffalo.” And finally, I do this thing for a living, and all of this threatens the industry that feeds me and gives me life in my day. I was having a conversation about this very topic with some friends recently at Maggiano’s in Costa Mesa (A great Italian restaurant at South Coast Plaza in SoCal), and here are the questions that popped up in my head, ones to answer in your responses: How many of you really care that physical albums will be a thing of the past someday soon? Does it even matter to you? How many of you support the artists you love by going to shows, buying CDs, merchandise, etc.? Do you realize the impact and influence you have by your support? How many of you aspire to work in the music industry in some form? Do you realize how significant these trends are and how they affect your future? Do you realize that if you start a band NOW, or have started a band recently, your chances of meeting death from starvation and poverty are VERY HIGH? Now, more than ever before, the power is directly in the hands of YOU. Music is a powerful force, and I for one do not want to see it go away in any way, shape, or form. I want to always have the opportunity to find new bands as a music fan, to be inspired by new songs. I want to do my part to inspire and to keep this medium alive and thriving. And I really want to know what all you think about all this. Do you care?

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July 10

Free Rice

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January 9

Legend on a Thursday

Here's a new poem I wrote recently. If you're a He Is Legend or a Thursday fan you'll see some references. Later!
_Elisabeth_ (Psalm 116)

Legend on a Thursday

All the lights went out in the city
There was suddenly nowhere to hide
Magnolia was coming
With the gardener by her side

All the little children ran
The Mothers drew them up to their sides
The Fathers went and got their guns
The young ones lost their pride

It was a Thursday afternoon
All was quiet, all was still
Except for the breeze that blew over the hills
And into the hearts of all the hurting young kids

They waited feeling the coming of the unknown
Wonder crept through their lost souls
It swept them away to a village unknown
And now they all look for the ones they used to call their own

It will all change faster than a speeding bullet
Arrows fly and you dive to miss them
But the mark has been made and the people are afraid
Where will you stand when the battle begins

Were already here, waiting
On this side of brightness
Where it all began
Like the fresh morning air tastes before it rains
It came
Sooner than I expected

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October 4

A Dream I Long For

Hey! I found this the other day and thought I'd put it up.

A Dream I Long For

We walked the path together.
The grass soft beneath our bare feet.
Her little hand in mine.
His little hand in his.
Ours intertwined in each others.
Ive longed for a day like this.

She pulls at my dress,
Had to get one just like hers,
Mommy pick me up, she says;
As we walk along some more.
My love goes chasing after little him.
Hell ache by the time he gets through chasing him.

A little up ahead we spy a willow tree;
All sit under to rest.
As the children run around
My head lay on his chest.
I feel his heart pound,
His gentle arm around me.
Could this really ever be?
A dream I desperately want to come true for me.

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August 28

Recording news

Okie dokie. As most of you know I've been having some trouble with recording. Well, I got this incedibly awesome tape recorder at Goodwill that I will be recording on. It won't sound the best, but I think it'll turn out pretty good. I'll have some stuff up as soon as I can!!!
Broken Bread will be playing September 15th at the Stokes Stomp. If you can go!!! It'll be fun! We're playing in the kids section! There weren't any spaces left on the big stage. I'm happy though. That's were I belong with the kids!!! I think we're going to try and cover, "Puff the Magic Dragon". YEAH!!! I love Puff!!!! I'll have some animal crackers too!!! heehee
Where's your fancy stuff? (Puff quote)
_Elisabeth_ (Psalm 116)

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