I'm no theologian, but I think I just had an epiphany! - if that's how you spell epiphany. lol
Posted December 7, 2006
December 7, 2006
Hey guys,
First off, I wanna thank everybody who just recently added me to his/her faves list. You guys really made my day - several times over! Thanks! It means a lot to me. I wish I had more to give you right now.
Um, I'm sick right now, with the flu . . . I think . . .
I was told it's viral, but not specifically the flu. On top of that, I have a sinus infection. Again.
YAY.
But, yea. Other than that, life is going a little better. I think God was trying to force me into trusting him again, and, now (after a period of serious questioning and doubt) I'm ready to have a little faith again. Eh, I'll just say we've been hanging on by a thread for the past month and a half. When there's nothing left to hold onto, all you really do have is your faith. This time really tested me on where I placed my trust.
My mom posed an interesting question a couple weeks ago, when things were really bad. She said, "What if God decides not to step in and save us from all this, this time?"
Not to imply that she doubted he could, or necessarily would, help us, mind you. She was just referencing all the people who, over the Thanksgiving holiday, had lost their homes in fires, been shot dead in a robbery, disabled in an accident, etc. Surely there were God-fearing Christians and such among those suffering from those tragedies . . . but for some reason, God chose not to intervene and stop the loss. So, then, it's fair to ask, "What if God decides not to step in and save us . . . ?" Really, for all intents and purposes, He's God, He HAS authority, He IS the one who gives AND takes away, the final decision is His.
But then you may add that "why do bad things happen to good people" question, and things start to get sketchy.
Anyway, I'm no theologian or philosopher, so Idon't have the answer. What Iwill say is that I just think the question requires one to accept God's sovereignty over life's circumstances and to find peace in the fact that life is still in his hands . . . no matter how cracked up and broken the circumstances may be.
Know this: WORRY GETS YOU NOWHERE.
Take stock in God's undying love, his faithfulness, and his promise "never to harm you" (Jer. 29:11 - and, yes, I did have to look that up.) Honestly, what's the worst that can happen?
A friend asked me that question the other day when I was freaking out about performing for some class my voice teacher was instructing. I thought, "wow, that's really encouraging. way to go! build me up by having me imagine my worst nightmare. yay." But, really, the worst that could happen there would be what? I suck. And, I say, "sorry guys, bad day."
AND I MOVE ON!
Now, when we were facing not being able to pay our mortgage - hmm, yea, I really did just put that out there on the internet, didn't I? - what was the worst that could happen? We lose the house and move into an apartment for a couple years til we're back on our feet. That's it. Even if death is the worst conclusion, c'mon, we know what happens after death for us. What's the fear?
Wow, I didn't expect to go off writing a blog here *cough*. HA, and KNOW that NONE of this is my own wisdom; I went to several smarter people for insight on that "What if God decides . . . " question. lol
Well, I guess, I'd just want to leave you with this
:
" ISA 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Peace, y'all.
Marc - (Oh, comments/thoughts on this would be appreciated.)
