PureVolume

It's a good day

It's Halloween...
Little Caesar's for lunch
Skipped vocational.
HE talked to me.
Candy galore tonight.
Woot woot.

Leave a Comment

Why do people think it's hilarious to put thier own crappy animations on a Dane Cook recording?
What's with all the fucking Halo dudes talking about shitting on coats?
Do you honestly not have anything better to do than sit there making thousands of little frame-by-frame stick figures resemble movement people do?
No, it is NOT funny.
No, you will NOT get a thousand hits on YouTube for it.
It's stupid.
And for some reason it pisses me off.

Leave a Comment

It's been a while

It's been over a year and a half since I've written my last blog on here.

It's not like anyone's keeping track but since then:

I'm a healthy girl that's just growing and getting used to her changing body.

I'm no longer in love with Mason.

He doesn't want to talk to me and that's the way it's going to stay.

He chose LaRee over me every single time and it took me forever to wise up to his asshole ways.

And I am glad to say that I am OVER all of his shit..

I have my ups and downs when it comes to being a friend. I suck somedays, I'm the shoulder to cry on on others..

I'm finally learning how to mature and be flexible with what life throws at me..

I have learned a lot over Sophomore year alone, and I am so greatful that I was given a chance to experience life..

I now suck at writing papers. Don't know what that's about..

I have crushes right now: nothing remotely serious with anyone. It seems any guy that I like has some sort of string attatched..

I'm not so damn naive anymore.

I try to give a crap.

I'm not closed-minded anymore.

I'm passionate about my beliefs.

I'm going to look for jobs soon.





Bye.

Leave a Comment

Curse me and my bowels...Gaar

I hate this. I can't eat solid food. Once I do my stomach gets all crampy and I have to go to the bathroom. My parents are trying to force me to eat, but I tell them that will cause hemmoroids if they push me any further. Aquafina FlavorSplash has become one of my best friends lately. I had half of a Crunchwrap Supreme yesterday at Cody's house and I about barfed right then and there. I don't think I've ever been more full. Bless Mason's heart for trying to get me to eat something besides juice. And it sucks because I'm physically shrinking and I can't even be happy with myself because it looks like I'm always sucking it in; that's just how my stomach has shaped itself around my new consumption habits. I looked in the mirror this morning and tried to make myself as fat as I could, but it just looked like I had nice abs. I shouldn't complain, but I'm the kind of girl that actually wants to gain weight. And it's weird because I'm not losing any weight; I'm just getting skinnier. I used to be a Medium in shirts, and now I am a Small. I used to squeeze into size 5 jeans and now I need a belt to wear them. And the whole Mason situation is making me stressed out, and I don't know what to do about that either. I already told everyone that I didn't like him anymore, and that I am only leading him on. I am totally lying. I really like him and I find an excuse just to talk to him everyday. He asked me last night when we would "get together", but I don't know what to make about that. I'm in the blue to where if he's thinking the same thing I am thinking. I just don't know what to do in this point in my life. I'm out of focus and my parents won't medicate me. Dammit.

Oh yeah when I was at Cody's house yesterday Cody held my arms and Mason tickled me until I almost peed my pants. I started screaming at them to stop or else I would wet my pants and they finally, reluctantly let go. I would have been sooo embarassed if that happened, and Mason said that he would've felt so bad about it.

Alright, I'm done complaining about my situations.

Leave a Comment

Stupid, Stupid, STUPID!!!

I'm so fucking sick and tired of never getting what I fucking want! People are fucking stupid...I just want to save Amelia, Elizabeth and Cody and then destroy St. Louis High School. This is NOT a bomb threat or whatever...just people are stupid. Especially Mason, Ambrea and LaRee. They are fucking idiots and I wish they would get hurt really bad, but not bad enough so they die, just enough to where they have to lie in wait in a never-ending hospital stay. Mason pisses me off so bad he can never decide what he wants. He likes LaRee. Of all people, LAREE? What kind of name is LaRee anyway? It's a dumb name, that's what kind of name it is. And then Ambrea is helping it along, even though she knows damn well that I'm so deep in this shit that I'm never going to get out of it. And the thing is, Mason just keeps being nice to me. Do you know how hard it is to hate someone's guts while they tell you how cool you are? And I fall for it again, and again and AGAIN. He knows fucking damn well that I was head over heels for that him, and he totally did a 180 on me and now I'm just confused and hurt and...all alone. And it's all his damn fault that I am forever pissed and I tell him to shut his fucking face and he just laughs and thinks I'm joking. I'm just so damn adorable that I can't make a decent pissed off face. GODDAMMIT!!! Why did I have to look so childish? Why can't I be like Amelia and look like some beautiful foriegn girl? WHY?!?! I never get the guys that I want. I can't have Mason, and now Josh is dating Alura. He was supposed to ask me out, and then he never did. What is it with guys being assholes? i'm glad Cody is my friend because he is not an asshole, except when he locks the doors to the car and then starts to take off...GOD!!! I want to go...like curl up in a corner and cry my freaking eyes out until I'm blind and then maybe I won't fall for guys anymore. Yeah, right.

Leave a Comment