My Apologies
Posted March 21, 2007
Dear Friends,
I lied to you all.
Everything I am is nothing you saw.
Thoughtless and insensitive I fall to my knees.
Here I'll stay begging you to forgive me, please.
Dear Mother,
You always said He died on a cross.
And all for my sins, so I would no longer be lost.
That's all I ever knew of you was your love for God.
But Mommy I tried to tell you it was all just a fraud.
Dear Father,
I tried to make you proud.
But everything good always got turned around.
Sorry that I failed you, but that's a thing of the past.
You held me in your arms till my last breath passed.
Dear Sister,
You robbed me of love.
Always turned your back on me when push turned to shove.
Wanted you here with me but you never seemed to care.
Now you dig the grave deeper into your own despair.
Baby Niece,
I love you so much.
But your mother keeps you from my loving touch.
I hate this world you have to grow up in.
Please, don't be like them and don't look up to me.
I've wallowed in the world and in my sin.
To hell with this world.
To hell with it all.
When it's all said and done will it have been worth the Fall?
Dear God,
I don't know what to believe.
Are you really there, or have I been deceived?
If you're real you've left me all alone.
Leave me any longer and this heart will become stone.
