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This Is A Test of Wills
Posted December 9 | Leave a Comment
So come on! Are you a freaking coward? Don't be afraid to die! So come on! You're such a freaking coward! Behind my back you lied. You can play false games And put dirt on my name, But you're the one who'll pay Yeah, you stole the girl But only for a whirl I swear I'll get you one day! This is a test of wills Fighting your social ills Yeah, I hurt her to get to you But I found you hurting her too I can only say I hate you so many times I swear I won't fight fair, in the li… read more
a car's perspective in a crash...
Posted October 19 | Leave a Comment
Have you ever felt broken, alone, and miserable? Yeah, right here. Sometimes I feel like my existence is totally pointless and superficial. I feel like I don't matter. Like I don't matter AT ALL... This is about the worst I have ever felt...and selfish as it seems, sometimes I wish I didn't exist... read more
NEW SONG BABYYYY!!!
Posted September 14 | Leave a Comment
So yeah, this has nothing to do with my relationship with Sydney. At all. This is something i penned while listening to Alesana (my true musical love). My Sword Lies In Vain As I Listen To The Words I Hoped Never To Hear Emptiness closes my throat as you beg me to let go... The storms arise in your bright eyes. Then thunder cries like your voice in the night. And underneath lies, your choice makes me die. I hate your words that cause our fights. Emptiness closes my throat as you b… read more
...separated...yet together forever...
Posted July 31 | Leave a Comment
so, as of right now, i have not talked to syd in 21 hours and 4 minutes. i'm like a crackhead that has just entered rehab. my hands seem to be shaking, my breath is fast and shallow, and i can't focus on one thing, accompanied by my constant moving. i need her. she is a part of me and my body is practically going through withdrawals. i love you Sydney... read more
So Come On Down
Posted June 2 | Leave a Comment
So come on down tonight Your eyes are glowing In the pale moonlight My heartrate's growing Faster, and faster than My lungs are working And time trickles like sand But right now nothing's hurting So they can say what they want, I'm not changing who I am Don't become a debutante Or you'll forget what I am So come on down, take my hand Don't make a sound, follow me and Know exactly how i feel 'Cause you make me real So come on out tonight Just climb out your window Let's ga… read more
hello there fellow campers...
Posted June 1 | Leave a Comment
Wow... so i have one question for anyone willing to answer: why do we all try to put on a front of this tough, "don't screw with me" exterior? i mean, it seems like everyone on here is the same. no one wants to be judged; try to understand that you're not the only one. yet it seems like i'm the only one who's not like, "don't like me? well f--- you!" the sad fact is that everyone will be judged, and everyone will be disliked, but rest assured that you also judge people, probably on a much more… read more
I HAVE TO GO TO MY QUIET PLACE!!!!!!
Posted June 1 | Leave a Comment
so if anyone has ever seen Hot Rod, think back to the part where he is "punch dancing" out his anger, and then think to where he suffers the extremely long and painful fall. then replace Rod with my life, and you might have a glimpse at me. haha "death smiles at us all. all a man can do is smile back." but i trip over my own feet, i wear striped sweaters, and poetry is my forte. i love to smile. come out into the sun. everything will be alright. read more
New thingy
Posted December 20 | Leave a Comment
"Goodbye My Love" I'm here with you but I'm all alone Goodbye for tonight, my love I know that you are my life I need you more than breath You keep my heart sealed away Oblivion hides the other side of my heart Let go for I cannot stay You hold my heart in your hands I cannot bear to look in your eyes For their beauty tears me apart Separation cuts like a knife Cutting into my very soul Pretense rent us asunder Your lies tore you from my arms Goodbye for tonight, my love I know that you are m… read more
Some stuff I've written lately
Posted December 19 | Leave a Comment
"Bring Me That Horizon" Lets set it on fire tonight Cause youre dressed for the occasion A knifes concealed in my back But you cant forget what I was like Baby, you cant forget me Taste and see, taste and see Im the best thing for you Baby, my hearts ablaze Im on fire for you But I look so good dead Lets set in fire tonight Cause youre dressed for the occasion A knifes concealed in my back But you cant forget what I was like Bring me that horizon Cause I see myself, yeah I see myself Yeah,… read more
new song/poem
Posted December 18 | Leave a Comment
This is something i wrote a few days ago. i kinda like it. My Heart Goes Unnoticed Her heart breaks with loneliness Shining eyes bring poignant remembrance How he left her all alone with nothing A chorus of tortured souls sings A serenade of her agony Her heart breaks with loneliness The night swallows my pain Tragedy tears my chest open Id burn myself alive just to see you smile Cast the fragments of your heart To the fatalistic winds Sacred dreams set beyond hope Sirens tell the tale of h… read more
hello. wife-beaters are the latest fashion.
Posted December 18 | Leave a Comment
Dude, i wish i had a nasty handlebar mustache. i'd wear neon orange '80s men's shorts and a teal wife-beater. but anyway, here's something new, tell me what you think: "Wide Awake Reliving The Heartache" or "I Always Keep My Promises" Hey baby, this won't last long I truly wanted to love you Hiding my shame from you This is killing me tonight When you push me away You shatter my heart Red stains on your hands Tell the tale of a knife in my back Torn between duty and… read more
New Song (after forever)
Posted November 22 | Leave a Comment
I've called it "Silver Wings Bring Hope And Tears," but i may change it to "Romance of The Falling Star." but anyway, here it is: My angel's broken wings Scatter silver feathers to the earth I caught her as she fell Tonight we'll know how much We mean to each other My soul drips tears For your eyes are gone from me No matter how long I cry I will never find out why Oh sweet one, you ceased to fly Take my hand and kiss me once more For apart shall our hearts be torn read more
new something (finally)
Posted September 12 | Leave a Comment
Wowzers kids... I've been writing so much, but haven't been on in ages. but here's something. Influenced by my friends' problems, my girl problems, and many other things. Hey kid this doesn't make Your problems go away But you sit there all the while Oh my stomach is weak And I hope that I'll Just die in my sleep. Child come into my arms I'll carry you through the day Away from pain, away from harm I'll make it all just go away All that will never save Or take away your pain… read more
okey-dokey
Posted July 24 | Leave a Comment
hello dudes, dudettes, ladies, gents, or whatever else you can be...cavemen...hermaphrodites...whatever. i am pleased to announce that tomorrow is my 17th birthday!!! woohoo! well, that's about all. bye! read more
new poem
Posted July 8 | Leave a Comment
Together in the night we dance Lost love rekindled in our eyes You held me spellbound in a trance Star crossed lovers' fate is sealed Red tears drip down to the ground Our hearts as one stand alone revealed I feel your blood flow in my veins I'll hold you in my arms tonight And chase away all of the pain Whence came the raven with its cry Or crows with their abhorrent call read more
