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Fire on the staircase

So you would think that they would have exepted me by now. I mean, I see them all the freaking time. And yet, here I am, finding myself looking the person(s) that cannot stand me in the face. I wonder why I even bother. I mean, what's the point in being around people you don't want to be around because they are two faced, or rude, or annoying. It bothers me that these people are so nice, yet so rude. They can't exept me because I'm in the way of something they can't understand, or I listen to a certain band that all of a sudden makes me "poser". I shouldn't have to put up with it. My friend says that I should be willing to exept them because of him. But I really am. They just don't want to exept me. I have no idea why. Why should I have to put up with it though??? I mean, I can't stand two of them, and they flat out hate me, and I don't know what to think about the other two. I'm nice to them. I don't see why they wouldn't like me. They don't even know the first thing about me. They don't know what I'm like, and here they are talking crap about me. About how much in the way I am. About how big of a "poser" I am. I shouldn't let it get to my head. It just does. Everytime I'm around them, I get this tension. And I feel like I shouldn't be there. I feel like that I'm looking in the face of a bunch of lies. So I start thinking that they are cool. And then they go off saying how cool I am, but when it comes right down to it, they hate my guts. I shouldn't have to put up with it. I shouldn't have to deal with the crap they give me. But he's worth it. Every single word they say behind my back. Every rude look I'm given. He is worth every last bit of it. And as long as I have him, whatever they say is nothing. I know how good of a friend I am. I know I'm not pretending to be something I'm not. Especially for them. I know I'm not a poser. Especially when the one calling me a poser is living a fat lie. I know how I really am. I'm certainly not a barrier. Whoever thinks that needs their head on a little bit tighter. But he is really worth every second. I don't care what the fire marshall says. If the only thing I'm in the way of is a staircase, then I think I will be okay.

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