I thought you were there to hold me
I thought you were there to love me
I thought you were there to guide me
I thought you were there for me
Knowing that you are out of sight
Finding out that I have no will to fight
I tried suicide in the dead of night
Weak and helpless I could not do it
So I wasted away bit by bit
Because I was to weak to commit it
Slowly life became normal again
And I learned that it was a sin
And in killing myself I could not win
Now Im thankful that I didnt give in
To the awful pain that was within
That would've been the devils bargain