rest in peace; zach stanwood.
Posted November 1, 2007
ZACH.
oh my god.
you have no ideaaa.
how much i miss you.
when i think about you, it hurts so much
you were one of the best guys ive ever met
you were so cute
so funny
and even though you sent me that one
fake
poem.
i still love you
& i still remember it
now that youre gone, im remembering every little thing
we ever had together
we had so many things we still had to do.
we need to go running at huntington
we need to have our marshmallow fight
we need to stay up all night and look for the brightest star
it all seemed like stuff we promised we would do.
and i'm still convinced we're still going to do it
i cant believe its never going to happen.
i wish i just WISH i could wake up and be
your best friend again. we lost so much.
i hate myself for letting you go. i didnt even reallize
what i lost. i figured you would always be there
i thought we could just. pick things up whenever.
!@#$@^@@#%@
you were so perfect
you were so real.
you were so easy to talk to
& it was always so much fun talking to you
i'm sorry that one time i was a bitch to you
I FCKN MISS YOU
always love: nada surf
passenger seat: stephen speaks
out of my league: stephen speaks
shortie like mine: bow wow/chris brown
my wish: rascal flatts
cross my heart: the rocket summer
that girl: david choi
you were so cute, and you thought of everything.
i want to see that thing you made for me so long ago.
you never showed me. you said you would think i thought it was stupid
i probably would have.
because i dont like cheesy stuff
but wow, you were the only person that made it seem cute.
i can remember everything youve ever told me
and i love everything youve ever told me
you were so perfect
and now youre gone
ill never talk to you
ever again
youre never coming back
i didnt even see you at homecoming
i doubt you even remember me visiting you in the hospital
but i went and saw you every day
i prayed for you every night.
i guess it wasnt enough
i feel like you broke my heart.
and you arent here to fix it.
the worst part is
i never told you how much you meant to me.
rest in peace
dont forget me.
thanks for everything
but you left too quick
april 17 1991-novemer 1 2007
"we looked like giants"
fuck im crying so hard right now.
i just want you to COME BACK
& i never said sorry.
for everything, or for anything.
IM SORRY.
and we didnt go trick or treating with you this year
that seems so wrong.
i cant believe how one day you can have hope for something & that can be enough
just hope
that things will get better
and then in a second
in a single phone call
hope can be crushed
and then you have nothing
sure you have your friends
but what the fuck are they going to do
youre gone
i cant change it
i cant believe yesterday night
i thought everything was ok
and now today it seems like the whole world is falling down.
