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XPINKBABYANGEL6X
Age: 20
Location: Elliot, CT
Joined On: Aug 17, 2005
V to the ILL
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Hoplessly Lost
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She walks tall shoulders straight and head up Walking with a bounce and smile on her face A faade or not Walk on blindly trough the hearts of men leaving behind a trail of tears Hand holds out and she takes t lead onto a path broken and shattered by lies and deceit Walk on walk on head towards that bright light Run on little girl run away from what you know from the arms of your mother Listen not to the tongues of mens lies and seduction Listen not to the temptations of what money can buy Head held up high with shoulders back and so Walk tall bright girl walk on far surpass your time Be timeless
Speechless
Last year, with my last blog post, I really didn't think I would be where I am right now. I be perfectly honest, I thought I'd be in my dorm, chillin' with some cool people, and living the college life. Nope. I know most of that is based on the fact that I made a really risky choice...but even after everything, I wouldn't change anything, because I still get to do what I want to do in the end. Even if it took a little longer to get there.
I guess this is just a minor set back...but I'm just ready to show everyone what I'm made of. Really find myself in college. i suppose it's safe to say that I am a bit scared...but at the same time, I'm ready for what's ahead of me, because I know what I'm going to get myself into, and I'm going to give that college my very best.
I just hope not to lose someone along the way...I hope this new love I found...well it's not really that new, but certainly it hasn't been recently started...I just hope he doesn't fade away into the rest of my memories of my life. I want him to be constant. Just like he has been for the past year. I'm not afraid to let my guard down and love someone, and let them love me, but it scares me when that love has to go through so much...and has to go through so much more.
I see other people find someone who they are truly happy with, and they have it so much easier than my boyfriend and I, and I just envy that so much...but at the same time, it makes me treasure him so much more for what we have.
Everyone can say that they can relate or can understand, but they really don't. They have no idea the amount of love that we have for each other, and what scares me more than anything is to lose that.
I'm going into the next year knowing full well of what's to come, and I'll prepare myself as much as I can, and get through everything that I need to, and hold my head up high. I just hope that when it comes down to the day when our love will undergo more than it has ever gone through...that we can make things work.
College, dealing with parents, and high expectations that I set for myself, along with a love that will be leaving to live on the other side of the country...I hope when looking back on this post that I can say that things are ok, that they're just fine.
All I can do is hope.
School...bitter sweet?
hmmm...school. Let me see, I love the fact of how I'm a senior and have senior privs, but I don't have a car, so I can't actually go anywhere. Yes, I'm such a winner. Other then the fact of my easy classes, so easy to the point where I'm suprised it didn't make my parents cry, well, I'm liking how the year is starting off.
But right now it seems like a long time from graduation day. In which, I will ( and I hope I will) be accepted into a college of my choice, and leaving CT. Let's hope for that huh? As much as I had a kick ass time here, i really just want to leave. Already I'm starting to see friendships winding down, and me not being as close with some of my other friends now. Ick.
We'll see how this year goes I suppose :)
My mother is a dumb fuck
The term, "just a friendly reminder" is a fucking understatement. Yes, calling me a liar when I don't even fucking know if I'm actually going to the beach with Carolyn...um...yea I want to, and I say that I plan to go to the beach, and I did infact mention it to my mom, but she's just to fucking dumb to remember anything I say. Not like what I fucking say even matters.
Oh yes, and apparently I whore myself all the fucking time, which is why I broke up with my ex in the first place to make her fucking happy. Is that enough? Nope, apparently not, and I have to "protect myself" and am "not to trust anyone, even your friends" um...yes, my friends are going to put me in bad situations. That was one bad friend, then all of a sudden all of my friends have to suffer.
Yep, I'm a bad kid.
That pretty much takes the cake now huh.
Fuck this shit. Period. End of Story.
Wanting Someone New
Hot and irritating
lying sprawled out on
the bed of her lover feeling
disgusted
Its always the same story of
a love faded away into
Nothing
He moves on too
without her
Is there not someone who
can bring back a sense of
comfort to
a lonely girl
someone, anyone be that
angel that lifts up
her head and make her smile again
Booooooooooored the fuck out of my mind...
I'm fucking bored right now, listening to good music, and wondering why I'm so fucking lonely. And why I'm so fucking pissed that my ex posts something in his pro ASKING for a girl to go out with him...that's below sad. What's even more sad is that I'm pissed because of it.
I need a guy...just to take my mind away from this shit.
"I'll save my best for you tonight, maybe not tomorrow or any other night..."
-The Kung Fu Girls
Slowly loosing my mind? Yesssss
Terry -4 real stop snitchen
wats up.
posted Jul 24
cagefighterX
i love the new pic very nice mia.
posted Oct 08
drummer626
hey, thanks for saying yes to the add, talk to ya later
^_^
posted Sep 30
psychspy
this week has been pretty rockin\' so far, hope it\'s
going to be that for you too. been working on some
cool projects. if you get a chance check out
spencerlane in my fav. artists, i think you might like
\'em. take care
posted Sep 06
psychspy
hey what up? have a cool day
posted Sep 04
Leur
i have not yet started the process, darling.
posted Sep 03