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Age: 20
Location: Raleigh, NC
Joined On: Feb 26, 2006
Secrets_love_lies_trust
College Misericordia, PA
nickahowfarwevefallen
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maybe mem0ries
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BloodyMary
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Sing...sing a song
just kidding...but just so you get a kick and a giggle.....*cough*
I'm leaving...not quite on a jetplane..know exactly when I'll be back again...I wish I could say I hate to goooo...
Brownie's (with ice cream) if you know who actually wrote it. hahaha. Tis amazing how much we know yet how much we mean it. Or something slightly more poetic. I'll be at meredith college until july 29th...there will be a break in between but its only for a few days..I'm not really sure if I'll be able to use the computer to write random shit like I always do. I'm sorry to disappoint you. I know how much the ghosts will miss me.
SIng me something to remember
I feel like writing but I have yet to really figure out what about. I mean, I haven't written in a while (week..maybe two..give or take) but it feels like writing wouldn't really cut it. I've been talking to myself in the mirror, its safer than actaully calling someone on the phone because i can at least see some form of expression on the other side. Besides, I hate phones. I'm going to a school for english on sunday, my father's day present to daddy dearest. he can't wait. just kidding, i think. I want to major in it i guess but at the same time i don't want to teach it so what the fuck will i do with an english degree? honestly i would like nothing more than for someone to say thank you to me and mean it. But knowing me, i'd probably say no you're not and walk away. I'm a dumbass like that. But that's how you like me and i'll do anything for your attention. It's kind of a funny realization. I write..lots of blogs...really about not much of anything..i keep about 3 notebooks (just like these blogs) going at one time and the fact still remains that no one reads any of it...and it doesn't help anyone...or me..well kind of helps me...but...it's almost as if there's no point. So why do i keep typing/writing? It's a silly thing i suppose...but i've always wanted to be remembered for helping change the way people view things...so i guess this is how i'm going to try...oh and in case you do read this and you haven't been told today..i don't know you..but i do love you...remember that.
The Night has opened my Eyes
And you were never more than the smoke
rising from the burnt out cigarette
that was used yesterday.
And you couldn't think of anything
else that could make me stay here
Even though I love your words
I can't be sure they're from you
Really you.
And I should've realized what was coming
When I heard on the radio for the first time
but girls like me are full of tar and gasoline
waiting for boys like you to make it.
yeah....its a midnight review sort of thing...don't take it to seriously or tell me what you think if you're even out there. Sweet dreams. I know I won't be getting any.
Perfectly Tragic
So the title of this is going to sound much more poetic than I really am. Becuase let's be honest now, poems and prose only have as much value as the mouth they come out of. And my mouth forms fucks a little to often to be considered for such dignified wordings. I digress. I was thinking on the way home tonight from my friend's house. It was foggy. It was raining. I couldn't see well becuase my car's a piece of shit and the windows fog up easily. Everyone want perfection. We do anything for it. I know. Big whoop-dee-fuckity-doo. I've just discovered the secret of life but oh wait, what's that do you say, this is simply another observation that is only proved so completely evident in today's culture that one inherently knows this simply by leaving the birthing canal? i agree completely good sir or madam or mr. miss. Please sustain your shock and awe until after the curtain has fallen. I thrive on other people being perfect. Not myself. That, only me being happy, that doesn't do it for me. It's like cigarettes....those motherfuckers don't do a damn thing. But when other people....when they reach a state of euphoria in which they feel perfect in, that makes me so amazingly happy that nothign can keep me down. I'm a wreck.
Untitled
I remember you...hoping that you stood outside my window...just behind the slits and panes...but you never saw me at all...how could you with your back turned towards the world...and me just wishing for a glance. I hope you remember the good times..the last times...the days we used to sit together and you said I was beautiful...and I just laughed. I laughed because I thought you were lying and in the end, you did. You standing on the stage is just enough to make me love you again. But when the lights turn off, so does my mind. I can't remember if you said you loved me but if you did I would have laughed at that too. I'm kind of a funny kid like that. Remember the good times. Remember the last times and Remember the days to come. It'll get better when we all say when. When.
Sorry for the randomness of that....it's dedicated to whoever you want it to be. Just be sure to tell them thank you afterwards.
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posted Apr 25
*helenarose*
hello to you too! Thank you, you seem pretty amazing
yourself.
posted Jun 17
Secrets_love_lies_trust
ha...well happy day aftere april fools to u 2....i was
on some one elses page and i saw u and you seemed like
a cool person...so yea
posted Apr 02
Secrets_love_lies_trust
hey....what up....other than losing, which sucks....lol
posted Mar 31
nickahowfarwevefallen
TONIGHT BERKELEY CAFE berkeleycafe.net HOPE YOU CAN
MAKE IT! 9pm! SEE U THERE?? :) get us on warped tour
in raleigh nc by listening to us daily
at http://battleofthebands.com/howfarwevefallen
posted Mar 31
nickahowfarwevefallen
Thanks for the kind words. WE\'re looking forward to
seeing you on the 17th. Thanks much.
posted Mar 03