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XEMOXTILLXSUICIDEX
Age: 19
Location: City Of Evil, Bat Country
Joined On: Apr 19, 2006
Occupation: Being Emo
Website: www.myspace.com/dahotsurferc...
hey im natalia or naty what ever you fuckin want to call me, im an emo/hxc kid and can be punk..depends on the mood and the music im listening to..if im lisening to The Misfits..idk ill be punk or act punk....w/e who really gives a fuck anyways..i live in the fuckin shitties town Elizabeth Nj ...dont come here its living hell.all the people are closed minded mother fuckers that have no life..i love a band called Avenged Sevenfold..they saved my life with a song called I wont see you tonight part 1 and 2..their firend had commited suicide just like i was about to do...life got to hard..i couldnt take it any more...i just wanted to end it all with asound of an loud BANg..but i just couldnt..i started to listen to tghem anout the same time that i wanted to kill myself..they wrote that song..and it says basically we fuckin missed you..my life will never be the same without you..and then i relized wtf am i doing..i could affect alot of people with this..all i wnated to do was die..with nobody to care..but everyone cared..my parents cared..my friends cared i did it for them..i just wanted everyone to be happy..but they couldnt be without me...i just cant do that to a person..i cant hurt them like that...i didnt have the heart to..Avenged opened up my mind...like nothing else could..i wouldnt listen to anyone..i wouldnt care..about what anyone said i just basicaly wanted to die.....and it was such and immense feeling that i couldt..stop thinking bout it..it was cold hard and cruel the paranoia in my head...but they stopped me..thats why i love them..i have a lot to live..i have many years..to see...and now i look foward to seeing them..because..life is beautiful...even if you got raped..even if your step mom shoots heroine in her arm..you can all change it..life is hell but yet it can be heaven..the sweet sorrow..can change into the beauty of night in an instant...and i dont know what to tell you..i just want to say that if your thinkin about doing those kinds of things...think about the people taht love you..they are guna blame themselves..because they are guna think its their fault for you killin yourself..you cant be that heartless of putting that much guilt on some one that loves you...just think about it..think about the tears you can see. and all the beautful things that can happen in those years..please listen..dont give up..life can be like a nbleeding rose in its decay..bu yet it can be a love that is so huge your heart wont belled anymore...i hope if you read this and you want to hurt or kill yourself change your mind please..please.. -Natalia xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxoxxoxooxxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxooxox
such a life that it is rarely seen or appreciated......
Well some days you look at your life like a death sentence...but other days you see it like its a beautiful day cuz your havin fun an i right? well thats how i see it..you talk about your life like its so bad but really its not it may have its ups and downs like mine has had..but u also have your good times..i mean your music is just something to breathe about beacuse to me screamo/hardcore/and emo is the wings of my life hahaha lol but i treat my music like my air...everyone should...i sit here for hours just listenin to the melodies of Ahimsa Sunrise, Or A beleiver....hmm? but somedays your just like fuck it..wats there to live for..my advice is to pop in your fave cd and thats how i live life thats how i havent disappeared from the earths surface...its a beautiful life you have to appreaciate the good things about it..i used to be one of thoses people that would say fuck the world its only here to screw you over but soon after i sed hey man life is beautiful when you find love and it hurts like hell when they brake up with you but u just goat deal with it..i did thats why im alive..you see my ex edgar in my photos i love the kids i still do but what can i do when he dosent love me bak? see you just gota learn how to accept life how it comes to you...just apprecitae what you got cuz one day you may lose it all..andfor those who got nuttin just pray for it all to come bak..And this has been an advice column from the emo gurl of nj tune in next wekk for more..hee hee im such a dork!!!!!
-natalia
2 WEEKS WITHOUT BREATHE
i would save u but who can we find r selfs traped in r
own private hells were we juse scream but no one can
hear,x marks the spot where the dig begins the tresure
is found within the BROKEN HEARTS THAT R SOKED WITH
FEAR(SENSESFAIL)
posted Jun 23
Your So Intricate 777
hi!!! i love your pic\'s FFTL Rocks!...you listen to
pretty good music, and you\'re pretty...um...PRETTY! i
love your hair, please! keep in touch! talk to ya later
posted Jun 23