Age: 101
Joined On: Feb 17, 2007
Occupation: TFG (treehugging fairy princess)
Website: http://myspace.com/xrainyday...
know me.love me.hate me.spenser.
you have a way of coming easily to me
and when you take, you take the VERY best of me
so i start a fight cause i need to feel something
and you do what you want cause im not what you wanted
oh what a shame
what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
just walk away
no use in defending words that you will never say
and now that im sitting here thinking it through
ive never been anywhere as COLD AS YOU
you put walls and paint them all a shade of gray
and i stood there loving you and washed them all away
and you come away with a great little story
of a dreamer with the NERVE to adore you
you never did give a damn thing sweetie
but i cried, cried for you
and i know you wouldnt have told nobody
if i died, died for you
The sun will set for you
And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in grey
And the sun will set for you
Everyone has a bad day. And something will be upsetting them. People will ask whats wrong? That is the dumbest question. The correct question should be Whats right? Everyday murders happen, children die of starvation, terrorist bombings, and the list of wrong can go on forever. But people see there problems as huge deals. Not because they are self-centered. It is just the nature of man. Problems vary between people but happen at the same time. On the same day, one persons problem may be having a hole in the shirt, one persons problem may be losing her homework, and one persons problem may be upsetting one person she cares most about. That is my problem today. Upsetting one person I care so much about and making them upset makes me feel the worst. And when I cried people asked whats wrong? I felt like screaming, or running away. Because the pressure of life is too much. Phrases like Live Your Life, Live.Love, and Laugh Love your Life seem to infuriate me lately. Why? Am I jealous of people who can love there life? Or because people they love love them back no questions asked. Or am I almost malicious for wanting people who are happy to have there heartbroken severely by someone they love, or glaring and almost hating people because they appear problem free? But maybe there not problem free. I act problem free most the time. I smile and put up a front and when some of my best friends ask questions I laugh them off like I am carefree. Carefree. Thats what a lot of people would describe me as. I laugh all the time, run around, and smile and call my best friends gorgeous when I see them in the hall. One time my best friend even described me and my life as perfect. And I even smiled and laughed. But why dont I act like I have problems? Do I afraid of people know the truth? Or am I afraid of being seen as not perfect? And why am I almost relieved I have messed up this year? Because people will stop expecting me to be a certain way. But I have messed up in a way that makes me seem childish and petty. Which I am. But I dont want to be seen as that. Childish and Petty. But that is exactly what I am. But that doesnt mean I dont have a heart. I still get hurt, but at the same time I hurt others. And that hurts me even more. Half the time I dont know what to do. Lauren is a confused young woman I have been called that by anymous person I still do not know the name to. But they know me. And they correct. I am a confused young woman. And I still dont know when the confusion will end. But I hope it ends one day. I dont know if I can keep this up.
kanela_cimnim
hey babe. how's it going?
posted May 01
Ellie
np =] how are u?
posted Apr 03
wes1990
hey check out this band please, and tell all your
friends pretty
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posted Feb 01
maggie mae
heyy, nm you?
posted Sep 17
Merrill123
yeah for sure. im merrill
posted Sep 12
xFuckXxCoreX
umm nothing at all actually lol. so how old are you and
where are you from? =)
posted Aug 11
magnifique_tragique
not much LAURENN. :] so the ipod earphones strangling
you, that\'s every morning for me. haha i always put a
different song on repeat to fall asleep to..and then i
wake up choking at about 2am.
posted Jul 27
Jennifurrry
i\'ve been good. i think that so far... this is one of
the best summer\'s i\'ve ever had. what about u?
posted Jul 03