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Hey I'm Alli.
I'm a junior at MoGro HS.
I live in a small hick town that I can't wait to get out of.
I have a bright yellow Ford focus...don't hate.
I love to dance
I also love singing...just not in front of people
I love music more than life itself
I love my friends.
I'm a runner. I'm in X-Country and Track
My AIM is xbeutifuletdwnx
Myspace is www.myspace.com/iwannabeamodel...add me and comment please =]
TV gives me headaches
I love apple juice
I'm a camera whore
I love cardio and ab work outs
I think I'm a gangsta
I love Hollister and A&F
There's no way you could label me. I am who I am, and I know nobody is really just like me.
I'm blonde. Literally and mentally.
I have green eyes that I would love to be blue.
I hate being how tall I am.
I hate painting my nails. I think its a waste of time
I love sneaking out late at night to do absoloutly nothing.
I love meeting new people
I'm shy when I first meet you, but after a while I warm up
I hate being stalked.
Don't talk to me if you're a 40 year old guy. I won't meet you anywhere, and I'm not going to give you
my address or my home number so we can 'hang out'.
After I graduate I'm going to California, and I don't think I'm ever coming back.
I really want to start modeling, but I don't think I have a very good chance.
I have issues being me, I'm not self concious most of the time, I just feel like I'm nothing to anyone a lot of the time.
Oh those summer nights...
are turning out to be a bore.
Most likely because I have drivers ed at 8 in the morning everyday and then am too tired to do anything else.
This weekend was my moms wedding...im pretty sure thats as much family time ill need for the rest of my LIFE.
jesus.
But seeing this whole wedding thing, and having most of my friends talk about how happy they are with someone else,
really didnt make me feel that great.
And I guess thats where everything kinda started to fall apart this weekend...I'm not sure why but lately all I can think about
is being sad.
Feeling like no one is there anymore.....and I hate every minute of it.
On top of that my moms making me go see a doctor for all this crap.
I never thought Id ever admit it...
but I'm scared to death.
I don't want something to be wrong with me. I don't want them to tell me somethings wrong with me. And the LAST thing I wanna do is take stupid meds.
I don't need some stupid medicine to temporarily fix my life. I wanna get out of this state, but I wanna do it by myself.
Not from some medicine or some doctor. I can't rely on medicine that they give me.
What happens when it stops to work?
I guess I've just been sad about all these different things happening...my dad and I haven't talked in over a month. I thought he stopped calling, but I guess he didnt. He called my brother last week when I was gone, and didn't even bother to call back the next day.
I would call him, but he always calls when he has free time.
On top of that, nobody in my family really got me like my dad did.
My friends are gone...or so it feels. I kinda just stopped talking to most of them all together, and its weird because I'll call and leave messages
but they'll just stop getting back to me.
I guess thats where I gave up on trying to hang out with them every so often.
All this...lead my mom to believe I need to go see a doctor. Maybe I'm just making it worse than it seems. I guess thats all I do according to most people....but maybe I'm not. Maybe I'm tryiing to explain to someone how I feel
and maybe
just maybe
they'll talk to me about it and help me through it.
The thing is
nobody ever has....so why wait around for someone to come, when nobody will.
Its raining. I think I'm going to sit on my couch and wait for carmen to call me back.....
heres to my freshman year
to everyone ive shared my freshman year with...this year has been really hard,
but really awesome at the same time.
this whole year really made me realize im out of here for good in 3 years.
i cant even make kid cuisines in the microwave, and they expect me to live on my own in just 3 years.
hahaha.
thats great =]
so right now im sitting in one of my last full classes. and it kinda makes me sad, i love summer but it makes me realize im never gonna be here with these same people again.
it didnt strike me until right now that i havent really been paying attention to how much i should enjoy it.
and how much im going to miss eveyone when i leave.
so heres to everyone who made my freshman year suck...and rock.
ive learned sooo much from everyone, even if i wasnt friends with them. ive realized a lot and its all part of me growing up.
hate to sound really mature and all emo on everyone here but, hey
this year made me realize a lot. especially right now with all these seniors leaving.
im not gonna see a few of them ever again. and its weird to say that.
maybe ill run into them again some time down the road but i doubt it.
when i leave in 3 years, im leaving and im going far away
and i dont plan on coming back. these last 3 days are going to be really hard for everyone...
but i just want everyone to know
even if we do grow apart,
and even if we do start to despise each other someday,
i wont ever forget you and what youve helped me through
ill remember each and everyone of you forever
i pinky promise.
now live it up...its summer '06!!
everything gets hotter when the sun goes down after all
goodbye drama, hello hot summer nights =]
…
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Dino
posted Jan 08
Fulgencio
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Remember that! Check out my band too!
posted May 30
[Baby, You Wouldn’t Last a …
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posted Mar 12
Monona-Grove-Cheerleader
Happy Valentines Day!!!
posted Feb 14
feedthefire
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posted Feb 09