I'm not content
Posted December 15, 2007
I'm not content
-where I am
-doing what I'm doing
-with who I am
-how I look at life
-the issues going on around me
-with friends that don't care
-the boys around me
-my opinion on my looks
I feel like I'm stuck though.
I want to get away, but I have no money.
I want to do other things, but I have no talent for them.
I want to be a better person, but everytime I try, I fail.
I want to be an optimist, but my bad luck catches up to me causing my pessimism.
I want to change the world, but because of the people in this world, I feel like I can't.
I want to find people that care, but it seems as though I only attract those who don't.
I want to look in the mirror and think I'm beautiful, but it's too hard.
I don't want to have this damp look on life.
Within the past 6 months I've:
- I've been stressed out
- I've said hurtful things
- I lied to people
- I've been selfish
etc.
I have terrible luck.
I don't know what I'm doing wrong, I try.
Please from your point of view, tell me!
I have faith, but everytime I do it seems like that
falls through making me that much more scared to
have faith about big things.
I want to grow closer to people.
I want love & understanding.
I want to learn, at least something, from everyone I encounter.
I feel stuck.
Take me with you.
