Age: 18
Location: COLS, GA
Joined On: Mar 31, 2008
the best is yet to come
status: taken :D.
hometown: Columbus, GA
currently living in: Columbus, GA
situation: Trying to find a job in a shitty economy. Bracing myself for college at the start of the year. going back and forth from columbus to atlanta at least two weekends a month just for the hell of it. trying to keep sane durring it all :)
myspace.com/travistorment
my mother has kicked me out of my house because i am the biggest fuck up in her life and im not responsible i rely on my friends i complain about not being able to do anything with my parents but even when the opportunity arises i cant cause i have plans already. i dont appreciate shit. i dont have any respect. im a hypocrite. so im out of the house currently staying with my friend johnny. relying on God to help me through this and make everything better. this is probably the last time i am going to be kicked out. but i kindda wish that i was back there. but johnny said hes going to let me move in with him if need be. i just hope i get a better job so i can at least help out a little bit. this blows
my boyfriend is amazing and i really do love him but im falling for mine and his best friend. ((the one in the blue shirt to the right of my default pic.)) im dating kyle and i love him but i get butterflies and get really nervous when im around my best friend eric. and i know he feels the same way because me and him have talked about it. but he really likes my bf. aka his best friend. its wierd when things like this happen, eric is both mine and kyles bes friend. i want to be with eric, eric wants to be with kyle, and kyle wants to be with me. i cant win in anything
im sitting here in us history and learning about WWI and i had no idea that Franz Ferdinand was a real person. I just thought it was a badass band that will always be one of my favs bu no Franz Ferdinand was the heir to the throne of austria and then was shot and killed by russia thats what set off the motions for WWI. its amazing how stupid i can be when it comes to school and then being the only person who knows who Franz Ferdinand really is becasue i put those facts about him with the band so i remembered. travis is smart today. he needs a cookie ^_^
Im sick and tired of people only seeing me for my appearance. they come up telling me how good i look and i fall right into their trap. they dont see that i can be an amazing person and all im looking for is that one person i want to spend forever with. all they are looking for is a quick release. a split moment of extasy, then its up and out never to return until they need another moment. its not that easy, so why does everyone think they can get into my pants. i cant even kiss someone unless i trust them to an extent, let alone have my shirt off in front of them. and if they are willing to try a relationship then i will go through with dating them. even if they are the worst person for me to be dating i will still date them to feel like things are getting better. so i lie to myself and i tell myself that they do love me and they do care. but deep down i know they dont. im told i am an amazing person and that im caring, loving, compassionate, smart, funny, and a best friend to alot of people. but they dont want to take the time to see that. their point of view is that "just let me get what i want and then thats all i need ffrom you". well its getting to that point that im not going to be nice anymore and go along with whatever is happening. im not just going to be a makeout buddy because im sorry i cant get to that point to become a fuck buddy, if thats all you want. it seems like in todays world everyone s everyone elses fuck buddy. im breaking that cycle now. i will not just be a pretty face for you to try and take your lusts out on. that is not my reason for being put on this earth. i think i was put on this earth to love everyone and care about them no matter how long ive known them. i hope that my caring nature for those people help them out wheneverthey need someone, i cant say that i help people but i have been told that when a few of my friends were at that point where they wanted to end it all they thought about me and how much i care about them and love them and they had a complete change of judgement. that is the reason i was put here. i am here to save. but even though i am the one here to save i am the main one that needs saving. i know that i cant help everyone as much as i want to and it kills me. thats part of my problem. i put everyone else before myself. i will go again my morals and standards to help someone else. now just so ou know im not talking about my friends in this confessional. only those that people i like or that like me. they are all the same. there is only one person that knows me and likes me and i like that actually cares and that person is exempted from this confessional above. this person has been with me through the roughest times of my life. we have had our good time and extremely bad times and they are still there waiting for me. they will always have a special place in my heart. people have asked why me and that person dont date again and i would really like to. i love them i really do. but i dont know if it is the best thing for me to do. i love them completely. but i dont know if the same feelings about a relationship again are the same. i dont know where this confessional is going from here so im just going to keep on writing. i think im going to go on with my life. ive been a major epic fail for a long long time. people say " no you are not " but they have no idea how many times ive let my family and myself down. especially on who i date. and the fact that i am so gullible and believe every wrd they say doesnt help much. but thats changing. no longer will a cute face and AMAZING kiss control me, lie to me, or think that they can step all over me and get what they want from me. because im finished setting myself up for pain.
i hate it when you go out with someone and then they break up with you but you end up being friends and then you still like them but they dont like you.....or so you think. you hear that they are trying to get you back and they have this all planned out and you are dalling right in to his hands. that completely turned me away from him i am not someone that can be taken advantage of. so they fnally come out to you and say they want to be with you but im done. nothing is left for them. its all for someone else who they pulled me away from to begin with. and now i have to wait for that guy. but hes worth it. so the ex keeps nagging at you and wont stop bitching. what can i do but sit here and realize how stupid guy can be...and then i remember im a guy and i laugh
Chris Johnson (Cherryquisha)
my birthday is Nov. 30. remember lol
posted 21 hours ago
Aw its Promise :]
get your butt back on here lol
posted Aug 06
Sammi
hey
posted Jul 14
martin
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THANKS , GOOD LUCK :)
posted Jun 23
Bails
haha i am so very random :) but thats really cool
though. I am just stuck in Charlotte NC actually a
little town Matthews outside of it...and its just a
killer staying here haha
posted May 10
Bails
heyy ok so i just think it is really cool you lived on
fort bragg. i have a friend that was there and now he
is going to irag...:( but its okk! i wanted to tell you
that!
posted Apr 13
Chris Johnson (Cherryquisha)
Are you able to text?
posted Apr 02
Aw its Promise :]
aww is that you and your baby in the pics?
posted Mar 30