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TRAVICATASTROPHE
Age: 18
Location: Minnesota
Joined On: Dec 11, 2006
Occupation: ADDICT
ninalynn
texas
emolover81
Downers Grove
[]++pinky~bob++[]
birds require nothing more than wings , to fly
jessica_noelle
colorado springs
Well My name is Travis. I used to live in Las Vegas till I let drugs get a hold of me and brought me to the point of near death. Being hospitalized for being so underweight and told was at the point of death isnt really to much fun. So I went to rehab to get off drugs left a month later. Used again and relapsed on opiates and methamphetines. I signed myself back into treatment for a longer time so now I live in Minnesota trying to recover. I now have 2 months sober;] but anywayss I love music . I play drums. I love girls. I love life.
"abandoned" a poem of an expierence
Sitting in the corner of an abandoned apartment. Bugs crawling up and down on the floor.
My body is weak my arms are sore. Wondering If I can take it anymore. I take my belt off and tie off my arm. Waiting for the veins to appear. Wondering If I will ever see clear. That I am living a life of my every fear. I stick the needle in my vein.
Watching myself squirm in pain. This life of mine is insane. As I begin to drift away my lips trembling with nothing to say. This was the life I was living every day. Ring Ring My phone rang. Travis he didnt make it, she said. Your best friend, he is dead. My head begins to fall back as I lose countiousness and dont know how Im going to live. My vision begins to fade in and out. This isnt the desination to my route. I look to the corner of my eye and see I have a few more shots. I cant take this anymore. I want to end my life. Just throw me the knife. I have nothing for me here.
I pick up the siringe filled with heroin and think this was my fate. Its too late. I shoot up both shots. I begin to fade in and out of life. Feeling as if im going to die. Sitting motionless trying to cry. My emotions were gone. I couldnt feel. I just felt as If I was nothing was real. Why. Why is my life all a lie. Why do I have to go through this. God help me. Give me the strength to end this. I fade away and pass out and wake up the next morning just looking at my arm bruised and face all cut up. Thinking to myself what did I do? I sat there and cried. Sat there and just layed to die sprawled on the floor. The next thing on my mind was I need more. Until a friend of mine cameto pick me up off my feet. He drove me to the hospital. And I realized this my my last chance. I took a glance at myself. And told me it was time to change. It was time to become the person I am meant to be. The real Travis. The real me
these videos cracks me up
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=6424334340916174667&q=hardcore+dancing&hl=en
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=3439759712700279188&q=hardcore+dancing&hl=en
♥♥EmilyyRAWR♥♥™
hey i\'m emily whats up?
posted Jul 17
val_dahh
hello. im val. how are you?..i read the old blog you
used to have with your story...i read the whole
thing...wow
posted Jul 09
NIKKI2 LOVES MUSIC
hi
posted Jul 06
electric EEL
hi ;] sup?
posted Jun 30
vegetarian ninja
hi gorgeous. i\'m rae[:
posted Jun 28
abbystu17
will you marry me :) hehe.
posted Jun 28
aLiCiAlovesYOU334
and ur pretty cute to go wit it hehe =)
posted Jun 27