purevolume™

Posted April 14, 2007

i feel soo confused and hopeless today.like i seriously didnt nothing all day and that gave me time to think.with these wierd blackouts or siezures or watever i feel scared. and its grandmas birthday today. i miss her. i just want an escape to get me away from all of this. and i do so much to keep myself occupied like sports and art but i feel like thats not enough. i hate wen i can actually realize wats going on around me. i wanna do nothing and vegg all day but at the same time i just wanna go outside and run in circles. its this wierd feeling thats like opposite from each other. i guess its just today. kris is pretty down in the dumps too. well theres not much more to say. bye