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Las Vegas, NV
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Kenzie Minga
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rachel
Clarksville, TN
Easyheartbreak.
Because depression doesn't sleep.
I've been sleeping earlier, trying to get into that school vibe, since it's starting in like four days. :I I'm extremely scared of being an outcast this year. There are so many ways I could go wrong, and it'll lay down the blueprints to the next three years of high school. Being a freshman sucks. on another note, jordan's ticklish on his face when he doesn't shave, and it makes me smile. ;3
Life is like a stick of gum; & I've yet to figure out why.
Lately I've been feeling like everything I do isn't good enough. If I tried really really hard, and wished every night on shooting stars and 11:11 and other shit like that, i still won't get anywhere. I had a strange dream where the closest people around me, they all ran off, leaving letters scattered all over my room about how they felt. Each time I read them, they all seemed to say the same message. What they said, will remain with me and only me. I guess I'm scared to die alone, so I want to stand out of the crowd to try and make more friends. Being 'unique' and 'different' is like a new trend these days, but not a lot of people can pull it off. Every time I smile people tell me it doesn't seem.. genuine. Does that mean I've never been happy? I wouldn't know what happiness is if I've never felt it, so I'll assume that it's when you can't help but smile when your best friend gives you this face when she watches your dippin dots ice cream fall off of your spoon in slow motion.<3 It's those moments that makes your heart smile.
I'm really scared of
getting left behind for someone else. I don't feel good enough for anybody. I know they say they care, and some of my friends might. But the thing is, there's always someone better than me. I'm lonely. I want a boy to call my own. I feel greedy for saying that, but I just want to know that someone out there wouldn't leave me for anyone else, and loves me for me. I want someone to find me perfect, even through all my flaws. am I bad for wanting that?
I'll keep quiet and make this a good thing.
So I've been thinking a lot lately. I stay up reallly late, but i'm hoping to get that fixed, since we only have twenty four days of freedom left. I really don't want to go to school. I don't care how much everyone misses eachother. my friends don't go to the same place I do. except my bestfriend of course, but we can see eachother during the summer. :] <3 i hate how i'm the party pooper at get togethers. like.. I'm too quiet. and boring. and everything. i hate myself. xD I think I'll condemn all your friends. at least there's someone to greet them. I'm sure they'll claim they knew you better. flattery will be getting them nowhere.
rachel
my thanksgiving was mighty fine thank you! i kinda just
sat around bloating myself and watching iron man with
my three guy cousins. it's kind of a man movie. how was
yours? are you excited for christmas?!
posted Dec 16
rachel
how fortunate! do you want to learn any other
languages? you know, add some pizazz to life, haha.
posted Nov 27
rachel
haha, yes please! all we have is spanish and latin,
it's rather sad. where is it that you go to school?
that feels so creepy to ask, like stalkerish, but i
don't mean it that way at all! haha.
posted Nov 13
rachel
japanese? no way!!! does your school offer that or are
you just taking it just because? i'm in spanish 2,
which is alright; i'd rather learn russian or german or
japanese ha.
posted Oct 18
rachel
sorry it took awhile again ha. yes i started school
awhile ago, and it's ok, hard in some classes, cake in
others. and socializing wiht guys and such, always
difficult ha. but getting better. you? do you guys have
like fall break and such?
posted Sep 25
rachel
sorry this has taken a really long time, but yes, i
just can't think of things to say every now and again.
have you started school yet? casue that's definitely
the hardest sometimes ha, but i'm working on it.
posted Sep 06
rachel
i totally know what you mean in like all your blogs.
just know you're not the only one that feels the same
way. i always think i'm the most boring in the group
too, but sometimes i just don't have anything to say.
on a lighter note ha, i'm sure you're not boring at all
:)
posted Aug 17
cobes
hiiii im cobie how are you
posted Aug 15