Nothing's gonna change my world.
Posted August 14, 2008
august 11, 2008 feeling especially crappy today, i felt the urge to listen to some beatles. so i put on the song "across the universe" to start myself off with. i really was paying attention to the lyrics & when the line "nothing's gonna change my world" came on i realised that it's completely true, no matter what i do, down to the core i'll always be an unhappy shell, nothing will change that. it goes for the world, you're a drunk, you'll always be a drunk, you were a bitch a while back? hey, guess what? the bitch didn't go anywhere, it's just you putting on a new persona of yourself, an new impression. give up kids, once you're something, you'll always be that thing. it's kinda like in grade school if you wore some insanely ugly sweater the kids would call you a dorkbrain or some shit & fast foward 10 years, you're still being called a dorkbrain. little asshole children see what i'm seeing now, you'll always be the loser in the ugly sweater. august 14, 2008 thinking about what i wrote the other day, i realised last night that yes, that's all true but how do we know which parts of ourselves are the real us? which is the core and which is all the extra crap we've collected over the years? that's my reason for life, self discovery, to find out which parts of myself i can't change. what's your motivation for life? love? power? immortality? tell me.
