I am Changing me
Posted May 8, 2008
I hate the way i felt literally about to kill myself but there is somthing that stopped me a love that is so amazing and never ending. God!.!. Yeah i know it sounds cleashay but it's true. so many horrible things have happened in my life that i felt hopeless and alone, but pretending i was fine and dandy. When inside i just want to die, but NO now i want to live and live for somthing real for somebody who has been there through it all and has been patiently waiting for me to come around. He loved me through all the shame and pain. Sometimes i blamed him for letting this crap happen to me but now i understand.It had to happen for me to b/come this person i am today to be strong and know that i am loved maybe not by the world but by the person it matters most Jesus Christ. Just thought i would share b/c i am tired of being a fake i am FINALLY real. Laterzzzz
