Guess justin broke up with me. which is strangeley odd... I have these mixed feelings of anger and shit. like I;m supprised I didn't cry as much as I thought I would.…
Aug 07, 2006
Just thought you shuld..know..
Jun 19, 2006
2:00am.. Blinked on my night clock.. repeating blank images and heavy eyelids.. I had just sat down on my bed to debate my nighly plans..watch the tube..veg..wh…
Feb 16, 2006
My name is Cindy I lost who I use to be, i remeber she was happy Don't get me wrong I find happiness in things but it's never the kind that is actually what I consider happy there are 3 important things in my life. Alcholo JUSTIN DAVID HOFFOMON. AND ana. other than that I'm basically the weirdest, .most hyped, disconected girl you will ever meet. and the sad thing is I don't give a fuck if you like me or not. which is weird because I know deep down I do. I ignore alot of the confusion my mind creates and because of this I must have a distraction or I begin to cry or feel sad. I guess you could also say I'm a wanderer I walk everywhere no matter how far. I hate being alone. Like I litterally go into convolsions and get extemely depressed when I am alone. I'm afraid to get old. This thought scares me. I love Equal. the sugar I miss my Best Friend. I love drinking and I admit I have a problem. and I love being with my boyfriend. I use to write but I can't find inspiration. I use to draw, it relieved alot of pain but know going out dose. I go out alot, run around town, drunk and happy I am only happy when I am buzzed which is weird. 162Ib....Tall. Getting to 159 is my life Hey miss murder can I, Hey miss murder can I, Make beauty stay if I Take my life? With just a look They shook And heavens bowed before him Simple a look Can break your heart The stars that pierce the sky, He left them all behind We're left to wonder why He left us all behind [chorus] Dreams of his crash Won't pass Oh, how they all adored him Beauty will last When spiraled down The stars that mystified, He left them all behind And how his children cried He left us all behind [chorus] What's the hook, the twist Within this verbose mystery? I would gladly bet my life upon it That the ghost you love, Your ray of light will fizzle out without hope We're the empty set just floating through, Wrapped in skin, Ever seaching for what we were promised... Reaching for the golden ring we'd never let go... But who would ever let us put our filthy hands upon it?