Fuck Me
Posted February 11, 2008
I suppose it is a human trait that creates the necessity to label and categorize any and everything. Everybody needs a place in the eyes of human perception, and it annoys the fuck out of me. One cannot simply be. One must have a place in the world, at least, by means of appearances. I live in Hawaii most of the year, and I cannot count the number of times people have stared at me as a walked, gave me sneers as I pass, mutter and snicker. I'm not that fucking odd. I supose it is because of the way i dress or the way i wear my hair, but that being the case, they can all get a fucking life. I have been asked far too many times, "so, what would you call yourself?". Must I call myself something? I would like to be Sean, but no, fuck that, not good enough. I have to be "would you call it punk-rock?, or emo?". I thought when I first got here it was just the people here in Hawaii who can't simply calm the fuck down, but when I went home for the holidays, I was in the same goddamn mess. At least it is across the board I guess. Social constructs really don't have a lot of weight for me, but I guess I'm alone in that. People put so much weight on their perceptions of me based solely upon my outer appearance. People are so goddamn superficial and shallow. Wil Francis said it best, 'Music will save your life', and i can scarcely express how true that is for me, and I'm so many other people. If it wasn't for music I don't know what I would do, and it is the only thing that has always been there for me. In times like these where I am separated from shows and other people who don't think that what I am and what I do is an abnormality, music is the only thing that holds me together. I can't take part in other people's fairytale existence, and folks seem to have a problem with that, but it's not good enough for me.
all our stomachs growl for the same thing
just another fix to us inside
eat, sleep, lather, rinse, repeat
none of those things are good enough for me
Catherine
