*long whine fallowed by some random thought to cheer myself up*
Posted May 1, 2007
dude...i NEED AMES!!!!! Ames being a town in Iowa that also holds the school that i want to go to and the nicest people ever with the most beautiful campus i have ever seen. it also happens to harbor the guy that i'm INTENSELY interested in. the only way that we'll actually have anything is if i get into ISU (iowa state university). this wouldn't be a problem for me otherwise, but the pattern of me being accepted into schools that i just applied for for the hell of it and not being accepted into the ones i actually wanted to go to. the ones i didn't weren't horrible or anything, they're actually top schools, but...i have no want to go there nor have i ever or will ever. since i Really want Ames, i don't want it to turn into one of the schools that i wanted but didn't happen. i do realize that if i was meant to go to one of the other schools, i would have gotten in and my rejection towards the ones that i did get into were just a sign that i never settle. 'if you are truly meant to have something, all the universe conspires to help you get it.' a quote from The Alchemist, one of the greatest books ever, read it. so yeah, i know that if i get into Ames, me and gav were meant to have a chance even though i'm thinking that nothing major will come of it, i just think we have things that we can learn off each other. Major things. we're both different and yet we work, just the funnest conversations ever and i really think he has a lot of shit to show me, and possibly me to him. just the fact that we start talking like each other after just 5 min of conversation shows me that one. yeah, i know, ...actually, cancel that, i just rant on here to myself anyway since i Really hope no one reads this shit(bacon..david...stop reading lol) so yeah, i don't need to explain that part if i already know and don't really care since no one should be reading this and i don't have to explain myself to you *smiles*.....god i hope i get Ames :( i have a lot of doubts on it, but really only because of the pressure of getting in to this one is so high. 'under pressure...pressure pushing down on me, pushing down on you...' great song by Queen, check it. name of the song is self-explanatory.
