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SPACE CAMP BLUES
Age: 16
Location: Gonzales
Joined On: Jul 02, 2005
Occupation: student
Website: http://www.xanga.com/spaceca...
acapitolidea
Erwin, TN
courtney_x_core
Lancaster, PA
Secret: i hate you
you wont read this. i know you wont. but if you do, its your problem. dont get mad and stop being jealous. im happier now than ive ever been and ever could have been with you.
anyone who reads this, scratch the other blogs ive posted about my girlfriend. shes so in the past and im so over it. it wasnt one of those one week long things and move on to the other person. it was six months of being miserable.
you BARELY got what you deserve. I HATE YOU. i dont know how else to say it, but i do. youre a control freak, clingy, liar and i hate you. youre just like your mom. youre a fake and i hate you. ive waited months to be able to say this. i really have and you dont know HOW good it feels. you were the best thing thats happened to me in the most horrible way. you made me realize what i really want, and its not you. you made me realize that im crazy for someone who isnt you. you made me realize that im crazy for someone who is NOTHING like you. i hope you realize that. i cant believe that you would try to accuse me of breaking you and your girlfriend up, who everyone KNEW wouldnt last, when you were trying to break me and jenni up. youre so stupid. youre the stupidest person ive ever met. get your grammar right. youre a junior so learn some english. stop playing the victim, no one believes it anymore. if they do, stop kidding them.
for the moment, i feel better so i think ill leave this how it is.
i hate you. ALWAYS remember that.
edit:
you have NO idea how many times i tried to break up with you. way to guilt trip people. the only reason i stayed with you that long is because i didnt want to hurt you, and in the end, thats ALL i wanted to do. im not that kind of person, youre just psychotic. i mean seriously, who blames someone for slitting their own wrists and going into a hospital for a month. i didnt put that razor to your wrist. that was all you and you cant live with it. PLAY THE VICTIM. I DONT CARE. put that razor to your wrist and press down harder than you ever have before. i still wont care. take twice the amount of pills you did the first time, i wont care. i stopped caring after the SECOND MONTH and i wont start again. did you not realize that? i hope you turn out how bad you described your mom to me. im sure that was a lie. just like how you described brittany. and i KNOW it was a lie when you described me to keri. poor girl. she didnt realize how crazy you were earlier. i feel even worse for her because she goes to the same school as you.
just remember: i still hate you. just as bad as before.
pretty much addicted
yeah so im pretty much addicted to purevolume.
ive noticed that i only use this to talk about my girlfriend and listen to music but thats okay. today makes one month for us. its crazy because it only seems like we've been dating for two weeks but it feels like five years. we've talked about so much stuff. youd expect it to take longer than a month to talk about and its crazy. i love her with everything. i really do. and because i wont let her name a kid Mustafa, we're gonna have a big fluffy cat and name her that. i think its gonna be pretty much adorable.
im addicted to Cities And States - www.purevolume.com/citiesandstates
he does an amazing job on Time After Time and I Will Follow You Into The Dark. those are my two favorite songs right now.
i think i post in this more than i post in xanga or myspace
i really want to see that new movie, A Scanner Darkly. courtney thinks it looks stupid but i think it looks good. i cant wait to see The Devil Wears Prada too. i bet shes gonan think im a big douche for wanted to see that but i dont know and i dont really care what she thinks anyway. she might be my best friend but sometimes even their opinions dont count.
i completely broke down last night. i dont even know why. one second i was fine and the next, i wanted to blow my brains out. i called christel and i couldnt stop crying. i could barely talk and i couldnt breathe. i would have called mica but i didnt want to wake her up and bother her with it. i just wanted to cry to someone without them asking whats wrong. i just wanted them there. im not saying mica would have kept pushing me to tell her but she would have wondered. when people ask me whats wrong, it makes me even more upset and i dont know why. i wanted someone to be there for me. just to cry to. and talk when i was ready. this entire paragraph is making mica sound like a horrible girlfriend. shes not. shes the farthest thing from horrible. shes perfect. she really is and i honestly dont know what id do without her. id probably still be with sarah and thats another story for a different day.
i definitely think its time for bed. its 707 in the morning and i havent done anything but sit here on myspace and purevolume and cry.
Teenage Velocity
Aghajdslfjasdlf!
posted Jul 16
Teenage Velocity
Aghajdslfjasdlf!
posted Jul 16
Silent__murderxx
what a cutie. i love you.
posted Jun 26