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Age: 19
Location: United States
Joined On: Oct 13, 2006
I could tell you that I'm frustrated with my inability to do anything about it as I am.
I could tell you that I don't understand why marriage is politics, and disregards love these days.
I could tell you that I'm sick of this large scale facade.
I could rebel against the fallacies shoved down our throats before we can think for ourselves.
I could promise to be myself; even if someone else doesn't like it.
I could stand up for who I am, because that seems to be a rare thing lately.
I could tell you that I'd die without music to inspire, communicate, and comfort.
I could say what's on my mind, even if I'm the only one who believes in it.
I could tell you that I'm just a girl with typical needs.
But I suppose you know that already...
October 17
:: Tuesday
current music:: Dawn Architects -- Wax on Radio
current mood:: Disgust
I'm a little bit disappointed with myself, in the fact that I'm so gods damned clingy.
I feel like I never talk to my girlfriend, even though she calls me everyday and we still talk for hours. I suppose I've just been spoiled, and I haven't quite adjusted yet from the summer; we could talk all day if we really wanted to. I really miss that sort of time, because even on the weekends, if we stay on the phone all night -- it still doesn't seem like enough.
I just miss her so much, and there's nothing I can do about it.
I never want to get off the phone with her, because I know that if I do -- I'll have to wait until the following afternoon to talk to her.
But, she did call me this morning at about 2:30, which made my life so much better. We talked until about 5:45 or so, and then I went back to bed. Of course, I was supposed to get up at 6:45 so I'd have time to shower and get ready, and do all of that wonderful stuff. With my luck though, I ended up sleeping in until 8:00, when I have to leave at ten after. So I begged a ride from my mom and barely had time to get dressed and wet down my unnaturally greasy hair.
I've felt so gross all day. Not to mention, on top of that, I've been on six hours of sleep for the past three days. I'm exhausted. I'm looking forward to my spare tomorrow morning, so I can sleep in until 8:30 and not be rushed for time. I guess I might as well go to bed early. I really could use the rest. But, if my lover calls -- then I'll be up again all night... Not that I mind, of course...
October 14
:: Saturday
current music:: Last Train Home -- Lost Prophets
current mood:: Bored / Extremely Irritated
I was just talking to my cousin on msn because I'm cool like that. I think she's in fifth grade or something, maybe sixth -- I don't know, and I don't particularly care. And she comes from a family of big ass Christian bigots and she keeps asking me if I have a boyfriend yet -- when she knows full well that I have a girlfriend, and have had a girlfriend for almost thirteen months now. Whatever... People are complete idiots.
Speaking of my girlfriend -- she's at band competition. Pretty nerdy, eh? But I love her for it anyway. Not that anyone's reading this, but I figure I should have a steady blog somewhere at least.
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