Age: 16
Location: Vista, CA
Joined On: May 14, 2006
A son of God, trying to find his purpose in a world that has given me everything i could ever want, but ultimately knows that satisfaction only comes from giving everything i have away.
well, its almost Christmas. I haven't been on for a while, been busy with finals and friends. Just wanted to share something though, yesterday I went caroling with some friends, and we got many typical responses, like smiles and door slams, but there was one particular response that really lifted me. We started singing O holy night, and this lady came out to listen for a bit. She stood there for a little bit, and then went back in. We sang for a little bit more, and just before we finished, she brought out an elderly man. He could barely walked and sort of stood in awe at a group of teenagers in southern California singing Christmas Carols when its 60 degrees outside. But the thing was that this man probably hasn't seen carols for decades and I can only imagine what he was thinking. I felt so touched when I realized that this simple act of singing could really brighten someone's Christmas. It really feels like Christmas now.
so, It seems that some of my blogs, people read! and its just by me expressing my emotions. so i guess i should continue doing so. so here is an update. after 1 year and 1 day of dating, my girlfriend broke up with me. needless to say, i was broken and torn. I just started thinking, why and what's gonna happen next, and just started doubting everything. at one point, one of my closest mentors talked to me about it. He basically told me that your relationship with your girlfriend was very similair to what your relationship with God should be. except God is perfect and he will never leave you. I know what i need to do, ive always known. but there is this part of me that is holding me back. I know that this emptiness, this loneliness and self inflected void will only be fixed by my creator. but ive found myself in a hole again, im trying to fill the emptiness with another girl, again. it hasn't even been a month! part of me wants to focus on God, whole heartedly, but this world is putting so many obstacles in my way. the world knows my weakness and is beating the crap out of it. i was about to say, i dont know what to do. but i do. i dont have the courage to do it.
so, this is life, absolutely wonderful. I'm out of school, I just got back from hawaii and I am totally in love with the most amazing and wonderful girl ever! She is absolutely the love of my life. But inside me is stirring a part of me that wants something more, wants a bigger purpose. I know that i am here to serve the one and only God. But i am finding difficulty finding time, a way, and motivation to get me off my butt and do something. Part of me wants to surrender who i am to God completely with nothing that isn't his, but part of me wants to goof off and be a teenager who does what he wants, lays around and chills at the beach with his friends while half of the world is starving in poverty and would kill to have the life i have. so what am i to do? if you read this, please pray for me. I am double minded right now, and im really trying to ignore this as much as i can but its stirring up a tornado.
so, i changed my name to the son of the rock. and if you don't get it, it means I am the son of Jesus Christ, who is the rock of our salvation. Make sense? I hope so, if not, ask me a question about it. have a great st. patties day if ur irish, and if ur not (and if u are) then have a happy Easter!
i wanted to wish everyone a blessed and happy christmas today. God loves you! :)
Kai Kai Says She Loves You
Yeah I cant really see you hating anyone. Well honestly
I havent been so good. But its ok. How have u been? I
really miss you! =(
posted Dec 30
Kai Kai Says She Loves You
Its ok I understand...I just got the feeling that u
hated me or something =(
posted Dec 29
Kai Kai Says She Loves You
oh...
posted Dec 29
Kai Kai Says She Loves You
u r ignoring me ='( what did i do???
posted Dec 29
Kai Kai Says She Loves You
Chris what happened to you? I miss you so much!!!
posted Dec 13
AKayWolfHaze
no prob. i like electric, but i have acoustic. and i'm
learning on acoustic. the one i use mainly has a kinda
thicker neck than usual. so it's even easier when using
one w/ the regular neck type. :)
posted Oct 02
AKayWolfHaze
i'll be praying for you and your mom. :) sorry that
you're friends are acting like idiots w/ the drama. i'm
alright. i'm trying to practice guitar more, and do a
lot less w/ school. :D
posted Oct 01
♫ That_One_Random_Kid ♫ …
hey man thanx 4 the add
posted Oct 01