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SILVERSTR82
Age: 19
Location: Groveland, MA
Joined On: Jul 28, 2006
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life is just so "complicating...." yea thats my new word about life... first of all im sick ... thank you agian for that one BunnysandFlowers. lol . but yea i deserved it cuz i got you sick first... but yea skating has been oing great .. like beyond great ... exept for that hockey skaters taking my icetime ....but yea .. school is not going too well tho .. adn guys .. well forget about them .... i used to be so good at figureing them out .. andi still am .. just not the right ones .. i dont understand it! and plus llike yea .. the one guy i want to talk to wont talk to me at all anymore .. well not the only guy i wanna talk to .. but the main one .. and another one flirts with me and stuff but he does that with alot of girls .. and i cant say anythign tohim cuz like yea .. hes one of my really good friends .. adn i dont know if he relaly likes me or not ... so idk ... but yea ... and then some of my other friends are like best fiends with me one min and then being super mean then next ... AND like yea .... im am so tired of saying "i" so much .. like i just realized hwomuch i talk about myself ... well i am in this blog cuz its about me .. but anyways.. like im school and stuff i always talk about myself .. adn its stupid ... like honestly .. sometimes i dont get how i have anfriends at all... ph yea and my family life isnt much better ... the other day i asked my mom if i could get a councelor .. and she call me "a well agusted kid" but like everyother day of my life she calls me a mistake, disapoitment, or a failure. so yea i dont see how i could be weel adgusted ... oh well ill keep on going crazy in silence ... ppl dont have to kno .. i always fake a smile even when im not happy ... but yea .. sometimes when im depressed i dont even know why .. its so "complicated".
yeaa
way overdue for a new blog post... wow life has made no sense lately .. im not going to go into names but ye a.. this ong guy who is amazing and i dont really have that same chemistry like we used to .. and i can tell .. but he cant tell... and i wanna make things wrk but its not. and then one of my other guys firends used to like me .. or still does or whatever... but i have a really strange feeling that he doesnt wanna talk to me .. or even see me ever again .. and i didnt do n e thing .. im so confused. yea and school isnt much better.... just got a D on a spelling quiz of all things .. and in spanish he calls on me when he knows in not paying atention .. its sooo anoying .. but of couse he does it perposly .. and like says really anoying things about it to make the whole class laugh ... i hate it. and yea in some classes i just cant focus.... skating is going great .. it is about the only thing right now too... like my family life isnt the greatest .. my dad is in china right now .. then he is going to korea ... i mis him so much ... and my mom and my step-dad keep fighting .. i know they dont love each other .... i have never heared my stepdad say he loves my mom ... and my mom has said it about him .. but all they ever do it fight .. i cant take it anymore. life is crazy.. but yea i know this might sound stupid ... but god and skating and friends .. they are the only things helping me through this ... and yea i could just say got but many ppl dont know what im talking about when i say that .. becaus ewen im skating i feel god with me .. amd when im with my friends its just like saying im with aother part of god. but yea .. this world is so messed up ... and i dont get why so many people do the things they do .. like i dont get why so many ppl act to dumb when they arent .. like i dont get it ... lol ... well yea i have to go .. but ill type more later .. byeee.. dont forget to add me as a friend!!!! byeee
i think im going crazy../
omg life has turned out to be even moer crazy then i thought it could ever be.... my school is insane! too much work.. plus i have skating 4 days a week.. plus work, well i like work alot cuz of the money and getting to talk to ppl ... but its still hard work.. and then i have my first school dace for being at this school is in a week... omg im so stresses... plus im not going to be in the play.. i cant no time .. well i wouldnt have made it n e ways.. like all my friends who act are amazing at it ... and some of them didnt make it... so i would have been hopeless lol..... All my friends who like singing are amazing at it too.. and im completely tone deaf.... and the whole thing is that i cant get lessions cuz i cant pay for them.. and no one will help me with singing... like all i need is for someone to tell me if im out of pitch or not but yea.. so yea n e ways ....yea when i get stressed out i write alot .. well not write alot as in blogs.. more like poems.. btu most ppl dont even kno i write them .. plus i dont show n e one even if they did kno cuz most of my friends write themselves so im afraid about what they would say .. like i kno they wouldnt like say they were bad or n e thing but still. o yea i finally got my cell phone.. its taken forever but i got it .... o yea and my skatings getting better.. i just have to stretch like crazy.. i think i might start walking alot for stamina and more exersize.. but i get bored walkin by myself... i hope someones reading tis cuz is they arent then im talking to no one lol....i miss how things used to be.. like all my friends were close and we saw each other all the time... i wanna join a school group but idk cuz they havent said n e thign about the photography club that i really really wanna join so idk what to do .. i think i might go to the office and see if they hve n e information about it.. o yea and im not sure but i think i might have failed my spanish quiz.. its so hard and i dont get it! well thats all i cane write for now.. sorry to be conplaining about my life so much.. hopefully there will be more good news next time.....
comments are always nice to have......
Yea...
so yea i havent written a blog in a while so i thought i would now.... really bored .... getting a cell phone sooon andi cant wait ... cuz i couldnt afford one b4 .... schools starting soon and i really dont wanna go, but what can ya do?? my school is not the best school out there to put it nicely but at leats all the pink girls are leaving... yea the pink girls are the preps... my group last year for clicks wasnt really a group we were nice to everyone pretty much but the preps most of the time.. so i guess we were the anti-preps. yea we were the kinds in the school plays that ppl thought were a joke .. and the kids who listen to music every chance we get .... we love singing ad dancing .. so yea we were normal ppl.. unlike everyone else.
But next year everythign changes .... because alot of kids went to private schools instead of public. So all the clicks are pretty much gone. the upperclassmen are going to hate te pinks i can tell and i cant wait.. i cant wait till our orientation... we get a mentor.. so i can ask about things like this... im not really worried about n e of my classes other then spanish cuz i dont rememeber n e thing but thats ok i can always go down to the lower one if i fail. i have some friends who are already in the school im going to so it willbe cool that im in thier school now... they are awesome .. they are really spontainious and can always make me laugh.... but they are two years older then me so idk if im going to see them very much. have no clue what to epect about my new school... this hould be interesting...
so yea i have been saying so much about one part of my life i should tell you about the other... hmm well the reason i say the other because to me figure skating is like a whole other part of my life... i have been skating since i was four and still do skate... its a blast at my rink because we are all such good friends ... but at the other rink there were alot of clicks .. so i left because i didnt wanna deal with it.. btu whatever. so yea im starting to get alot better at skating and im starting to get alot stronger which is good because im just getting over having back problems.. so thts good. so rght now life is good and im trying to start likeing everyone .. including the pinks which will be difficult but i think it will be ok. so right now life is good.
thats all for this post...
idk...
hmm.. idk what to say so yea.. omg life sucks sometimes..but i think everyone has felt that way at one point of another. so yea i start my job today ... well just the training but its a start... and im kinda nervous but then again im not... i mean its not that difficult. so yea . plus i have skating. yea i figureskate, andits more difficult hen ppl think. yea my skating coach is going crazy cuz i am missing practices but whatsnew?
well .. yea school is starting soon and im not nervous.. but i am.. wow that amkes sence. ok well lets say that i am wrong about what i think school will b like this year, then ill b nervous, and there is a 95% chance i am wrong, but u never know.yea i know im not going to do well in school with a job and skating.. so i dont know about being in the school plays ... i kno this year im not going to be in the musical considering i cant sing all that well... well i dont think i can sing, but u never kno. havent met n e of my teachers besides history but idk about him yet... i cant speak spanish to save my life so i hope honors spanish doesnt suck...
well i guess i wrote enough.. ill write more next time.
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AsILayDying777
lol ya
posted Feb 08
AsILayDying777
thats good....well its about the same 4 me.....bored
and what not
posted Feb 05
AsILayDying777
thats kool...so how do u like it?
posted Feb 04
AsILayDying777
im in 10th....u?
posted Feb 03
AsILayDying777
thats good.....and yes skool suks....alot...well im
doin purdy good....u?
posted Feb 03
AsILayDying777
ty me and my friend are trying really hard to but we
cant seem to find any1....so how have u been?
posted Feb 02
BunNyS aND fLoWeRs
Hey beautiful stranger :] lol yea. I\'m hyper... So
yea, you needa come on purevolume more seeing as how
its like a million times better than myspace bc of
courseee I have one. tehehe. yepp i make no sence... x]
but thats OK. Yea noone ever comes on ne more and its
like depressing. there all too busy with myspace. I
think i might redo mine but I still haven\'t decided.
It\'s been like 2 days and I\'m already like on
withdrawl. Ugh. I\'m a sad sad person. lol. but i think
im ganna im u now. Hugsss ♥ calyn
posted Dec 26