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Rant #2 // my thoughts.

this probably won't make sense to anyone. these are just my thoughts. what's going through my head at the moment.

i hate it when you over react about every single thing you could ever possibly think of. I looked at you the wrong way? What exactly is the wrong way? I wrote something about someone that isn't you. News flash, you have a boyfriend.  you always try to make me feel bad by adding unhappy faces to everything, but I have ginormous news for you, I DON'T CARE. Not any more. I'm your "secret" anyway, right? Well I don't want to be that anymore. Just grow up. I already told you my opinion on this, and I'm not happy with the way things are.

Subject Number 2:

A question of a past experience does not pertain to the present. He's YOUR boyfriend. I'm still in love with him, but you're my friend, and I'm not going to try and steal him from you. I wouldn't have a good chance anyway. I asked if our previous relationship was real when it happened. Not if he loved me still. That's all. That's all I wanted to know, that's all I needed.

This goes to number 2. I didn't understand how you left me for her. I don't understand how I could love you so much and how everything was perfect, but you just dropped me. And in so many ways. When I found out who the main girl was, I talked so much shit about her. I was devestated for so long. and when I asked the question of "did you actually love me, or were you lying", you're answer "I don't say it if I do't mean it." How could I have lost you if you loved me? For the longest time I thought it was because she was better, she showed you she loved you better, she lived closer. But I met her yesterday. She's amazing. She's so sweet, so chill, and we get along magnificintly. I can see why. But hearing her talk, you came up in our conversations. I think I had the story all wrong. I think I just thought I knew what was going on. I think that she was your best friend. She was your best friend and you loved her. She said you talked about me. Said good things about me. I miss you though. god how I miss you. I don't know how to gather my thoughts about this. I don't know what to do.

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today was just horrible. i lost a friend. i knew his family a lot better than him, but it still hurts. i'm thinking of what his family must be going through. losing a child? i've had way too many people just quite on me, or at least try. i don't know how to feel right now. it's all just a shock to me. it doesn't feel real, but at the same time i know i won't be seeing him at random moments anymore. i won't see him with his random hair colors.  i've lost him. everyone around me is crying and so upset. i can't get a smile from anyone. it's killing me.

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so there's this girl

i can never get her out of my mind.

she's cute, sweet, a best friend, and just amazing in every single way.

i wrote her a poem, just to give her a glimpse of how much she means to me.

even though she's sadly so far away, she supports me better than anyone i've met face to face. confidence is just a minor thing she's boosted for me. people around me have noticed how much happier i've become in just these few months, and i owe it all to her.

i look forward to your letters everyday. :)

i <3 you way more than you <3 me!

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