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"THE BEST LOVE IS THE KIND THAT AWAKENS THE SOUL AND MAKES US REACH FOR MORE, THAT PLANTS A FIRE IN OUR HEARTS AND BRINGS PEACE TO OUR MINDS"
I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough.
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It's Gonna Be hard
"... i wish life was easier but it isn't so we have do do what we can and not think about everything we can't..." Do what you can with what you have, where you are. That was a line that a friend of mine wrote and for some reason it struck me hard tonight. So many times we beat ourselves up wishing lifecould be easier, better. But beating yourself up for something that you can't change only makes things a lot worse and a lot harder. So many times I wish I could just get married. I feel that it would solve so many problems in my life...and i still do believe that to a point. But I've also come to realize that we rely so much on earthly relationships instead of a relationship with our Creator. Now don't get me wrong... a relationship with a girl or boy is a great thing and it seems like the best but our relationship with God must come first. To tell you the honest truth, thats the hardest thing to say because I love my girlfriend with all i am and to know that I have to put someone above her, someone who I can't even see or touch for the matter... it seems ridiculous. A friend of mine was saying how there was a week when his girlfriend just constantly kept calling him with her problems as she wept on the other end of the line. He felt bad for her cuz her week was rough but he said it got to the point where he couldn't even pick up the phone. He told her that she couldn't keep running to him with her problems... it was as if he had become her crutch. He told her that she had to rely and trust in GOd that he will help her... not him. That struck me hard because sooo many times my girlfriend is th e only person that I run to with crazy things on my mind but all we really need to do is talk to God. The best part about GOd is he doesn't have a voicemail, or an address, or even a busy schedule that he has to work around. He's just there. All it takes is a simple thought and he hears you. No need to close your eyes, to get on your knees, or even be alone. Just talk. He listens I promise. God doesn't have this warranty like " If it doesn't work in 30 days you'll get your money back"...it works. He takes our burdens and calls our fears away from us. It's crazy! You know that relief you get when you tell a friend something hard thats been going on in your life? Multiply that by ten gazillion...you really feel it...really. I will never forget when I did that and I felt the craziest, sickest, sweetest feeling rush through me. I want more of those experiences. I wanna feel God just touch me.But he won't come to me. I must go to him. He doesn't do this to be mean like he doesn't want to be close to him. He wants us to make the choice to draw close to him. He says specificly that he wants people who are crazy about him, those who don't second guess. Thats nuts. I second guess God way too much. I feel ashamed. I'm shutting the Creator of this freakin crazy awesome world out of my life...how could I do that? Would you shut out your biggest role model if they came to your house? Of course not, you would welcome them with open arms and become the best person you ever were. Why can't we just give ourselves to him? Cuz it's to hard? It's always gonna be hard, and your gonna have to work at it everyday, but I believe it's worth it, I really do...He wants you. He's why we're all alive and we're why He's still alive. We're what keeps him going each day. Look how dirty we are? ANd yet he said you know what... I see potential in these people... I'm going to give them a shot. If you created an ugly piece of art, would you keep it? No, no you wouldn't. But He did. And we honestly cannot forget that.
Loving God Ain't So Easy
I love my girlfriend an insane amount. and when i think of how crazy i get about her and how i'm always wanting her, it always seems to come to my mind that, if i can go crazy over her, just another human yet one that i love the most, how can i not love God that much? and how can i not go craazy for God? I guess a lot of it has to do with the fact that she's a physical "being" that i've seen and touched and know is real. but i could say the opposite about God. But then i thought about it...and maybe, i know this is going to sound stupid but, maybe He doesn't want us to see him because He doesn't want it to be that easy. Like I spend a few minutes with her and a few minutes after that i want her again. It's like human relationships and human love is a drug. we need constant doses of it to keep us going, to keep us feeling good. but God doesn't want us to just feel good, and He doesn't want us to just be crazy over him for simple "i need you to satisfy my earthly craving" reasons. He wants us to love Him, to serve Him, to live for Him. I know this may sound weird and strange but to me it makes sense, its just soo crazy and hard to put into life. I never really got why it was so hard to "want" God, but I think i have a bit of an understanding of this sweet mystery He has created for us.
From the Inside Out
I hate taking notes...really. I know they help you and all but, I would just rather pay attention at that moment. I did this the other week at Momentum Youth Conference and I sort of regretted it after that week when I was thinking about how I could keep the spirit alive in my life. Luckily our youth leader took note= D. He realized the fact that most of us didnt take notes and decided to type out all of his notes and printed them off for us to take if we wanted to. So I did and Im pretty glad I did. Ive been reading at least one page a night, just so I dont cram it into one night just to get it over with yeah Im smart. So last night I was reading through it and one of the speakers had talked about Pauls Story. Paul was one of those people who knew what to do and how to do it in order to make others believe he was a Christian, but on the inside he didnt have the right motives. As the speaker put it or our youth leader put it, he was trying to change himself from the outside in, instead of from the inside to the out. This sentence sort of struck me in some way and I had to think about it for a little bit. Ever since youth conference Ive been trying to be nice to people and to love people and do good things the best I can and Im not saying thats wrong, we all know that those are good things but Im not really doing it for God. And Im not waking up saying ok who am I going to pretend to love today or anything, its not on purpose. I just dont say, Ok Godwhats your plan for today? And I need to. Dont just try to be a good person because thats what a real Christian would do. Do it because you know its what God wants you to do and that your happy not because of worldly things but because your Savior, your dad is whats making you happy. Check out these lyrics by the worship group from Australia, Hillsong:
A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
A Week No One Will Ever Forget
Okay so as those of you who read my entry when I told you guys that I was going down to the dirty south fro a youth conference, this is how it went.IT WAS TOTALLY AWESOME! I couldnt have asked for anything better this summer to help myself get rejuvenated for God. I was just telling my grandma the other morning that last year some of the speakers were yes, a little boring but this year they were all really interesting and they were all pretty straightforward and didnt necessarily care if they hurt anyones feelings, they just gave it to us the way it really is and I loved them for that so much because I feel like we Christians sort of beat around the bush to much about some stuff and I know I dont have any example but thats just the way I feel so hey. But yeah there were a lot of lessons I learned this past week. I got the chance to talk with one of the guys in our youth group that also went on OB (Operation Barnabas) and he asked me what I learned all week and I told him that God's really been teaching me to put him above everything/everyone else and I feel He has accomplished that in me. One time I was all alone and felt kind of mad (or I guess I was jealous) that no one wanted to hang out with me, then I thought about God and all He has done for me and I was overcome with so much joy. It was sweet. Then another time I was in one of those "I need a hug moods (I know it sounds like a girl thing...sorry) but no one was there to give me one and all of a sudden I felt this strong breeze go past me and I knew it was God saying, Dude Im here, I gotcha, and after that I gave like 10 people hugs...haha yeah that was awesome! One of our speakers spoke on what I thought was one of the most important things and that was about Getting Dirty. He gave us an example of a time when he took a trip to, I believe it was London, and he lived on the streets for 7 days. He told us about ways he tried to reach out to those in need and also some funny stories. His main point was so true. We Christians like to just stay in our church, praise God for what Hes done in our lives instead of worrying about what will happen to others. We must get dirty for Jesus and step out of our little Christian bubble and spread Gods love to the rest of the world. This week at conference I was shown how God works in amazing ways and also in small ways and it has opened up my eyes to see that He is bigger then anything and He ultimately reigns over me. Love you guys
The Interview for the Job Called Life
I dont know how many of you know this but the way I earn money over the summer is by mowing peoples yards. I dont want to brag or anything but I would have to say that I think I do a pretty nice job for the money I make and the time it takes. But to me mowing isnt just the only part that a yard needs, necessarily. I also like to weed-whack, and sweep off the sidewalks, driveway, ect. But I will be truly honest, I dont always do that to all my yards. Luckily not all of my employers have me sweep off their sidewalks because they say they will do it. So this isnt exactly about those people.
Today I was out mowing a for someone and when I got there she wasnt home but luckily I know her password into her garage so it was ok, haha yeah thats rightshe trusts me. So I finished up mowing and she still wasnt home. Now normally this wouldnt bother me because she is also trustworthy/ loyal and never tries to get out of paying me so I knew that I would get my money. But a week ago she said that she had some plants for me to plant and so I went one day and she wasnt home. So we talked this week and decided I would come today and mow the yard and then plant all the different plants she wanted planted. So she wasnt home so I left a little note for her on her porch and figured that I was done. Then I remember, Oh yeah, I should probably sweep off the driveway. Haha but I absolutely hate doing that because she has this dinky little broom and it takes forever. And thats what started to make me think. If this was Gods house, would I try and get out of sweeping off his driveway and we all know the answer is: No. After thinking this I remember that last week I had the same thought pop into my mind but just shoved it aside and just swept a tiny bit. I tried to think about what God would expect from me. And I kind of figured this out. I doubt God would order and say that I need every piece of grass off the driveway because Hes the Son of God and He deserves it like that. He would just say: Hey man, do your best and I will be happy with that. So I did my best to do just that. Haha I have never taken so long to sweep in my life. Then that brought up another thought. What would an interview with God be like? This is what I imagined it would be like: Hey Im God, go ahead and have a seat. Then He would ask, Whats your name. And I would reply, My name is Tyler. And we would talk through all the job qualifications and all that boring stuff. Then I would ask the question that is on everyones mind when going to an interview, How much will I be making. It was at that moment when I started thinking about what some people, My work is my life. And I came to a conclusion in my mind that its the other way around, our life is our work. God interviewed us and found out that we were sinners; he started His business by dieing on the cross. And now our work is to live our life working for Him. Thats essentially what were here for, right? He is our purpose for life isnt He? I felt almost in awe at my own thoughts after this (even though they are really Gods thoughts think about it) but yet I feel as if I have discovered mine and your purpose for life. Take time to really think about the fact that everyday we are working for God. And if youre working for God, dont you want to do everything to the best of your ability? I know I do
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