day two [numbness]
Posted April 22, 2008
maybe we should have kept our mouths shut. because now it seems i'm not being push i reali want to run away. away from the fights, the drama, and the pain. i want to hide alone and cry. i thought that something had clicked. maybe a change was gonna happen this time but i was wrong. you put me down and blame me. well whatever. i dont care anymore. love is not supposed to be this hard, or painful. all i wanted was alittle affection. but like you said i always ask to much of you. i'm sorry i couldn't be perfect, thats just not me. i dont have much to say today except my feelings are numb. i put them on ice and locked them away so that they dont hurt anymore. i'm just pretending like it never happened going back to being 14 again. except this time im not ruining lives and the queen of fights. im just sitting back and watching everyone eat each other and laughing. Songs: none mood: wishing i had time to buy the truth about forever by sarah dessen. [so i can hide behind a book]
