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RAINHELPSTOHIDETHETEARS
Age: 15
Joined On: Jul 30, 2007
diamonds_in_the_sky
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Colorado USA
AlexisaurusRex™(love_my_bandana_not_me)
in my emo corner
Xidis777
under layers and layers of Gods love
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hey well bout me...
appearance-
long brown hair,
grey eyes,
5ft 3,
15 yrs old,
usually in comfortable clothes my style no one elses-
DONT STEROTYPE MY BY IT!!!
personallity-
easy to get along with,
funny sometimes mostly by accident,
usually APEARS happy,
easily hurt,
would die for my friends,
tends to fall in love with the wrong ppl,
has bad mood swings where i go from hyper to depressed rly quickly,
often wants to cry,
lonely alot,
trust either way too easily or not at all,
falls hard when hurt,
likes aim/the phone,
introverted,
easily bored but also easily entertained lol tell me how that works,
likes animals,
vegetarian,
bisexual,
flirts a bit but only if i feel comfortable,
never kissed anyone and cant picture myself doing such,
gives ppl a choice/lets them be who they want to be,
still learning how to forget,
says im sry alot,
needs to learn how to be happy,
doesnt lie unless i dont trust u,
likes to help ppl,
blames myself wen someone gets hurt even wen it isnt directly my fault,
wishes i was a bird so i could just fly away
and ya thats me
please dont call me a fake
trust me im not
please who tend to say that dont understand that humans can hide theyre feelings or change theyre opinion
some of them need to look back at them selves and ask themselves if they r fakes
dont sterotype me-you hav no idea how much that hurts ppl
and those ppl who look down on ppl i mean my god get a fuckin life
learn the world doesnt revolve around u
and deal with it
music=life
i cant spell for shit
and i can be random as hell
thanx if anyone actually read all of that
comment plz im feelin rly lonely
lov u
-Ami
poem 4: sept 27, 2007
i thought i knew you
but i guess i dont
i thought u understood me
but i was wrong
i thought id found a friend
someone to hold me wen i cried
even wen i dont tell u exactly y
someone for me to love without kisses and dates
just someone to be there always
how could i hav not seen the pain
the way you just pushed me away
like it made no difference
i thought mistakes got second chances
but i guess anger and hate ruin it
but u cant stop lovin someone
wen they couldve let go so long ago
you can still feel the tears from the memories
but none will come in present
alone. such a silent word
its almost like death
or maybe they are the very same
emptyness is just like that
no words no emotion just stillness
youve since long ago tried and failed
making an effort to put your heart back together
but some pieces are missing
and you cant find them
because i left them with you
youll never know
would you even care?
wheres your heart these days any how?
explanation- this wasafter a very good friend of mine decided he thought i was a poser and hated me. this was very hard for me and i felt worthless and lik hed torn my life apart. no this is not because we were dating we were lik siblings actually. that close. but then he and other friends of mine decided to abandon me. no dont feel sry for me i cant stand pity. just empathize if u can how i felt from this poem.
DO ME A FAVOR AND DONT COPY THIS WHAT EVER YOU DO!!! I WROTE THIS MYSELF IT IS MY POEM NOT YOURS!
thanks
-Ami
poem 1
my nails arent sharp or they'd gauge my palm
there's anger here; anything but calm
pounching bags dont always work you can tell
the day starts like heaven and ends with hell
breathing slowly doesnt calm me down
there should be a smile but i wear a frown
my pride stops me from telling the truth;
i need help
i need you to tell me that i'm loved
i need you to be there for me;
i can't do it myself
crying, crying
i wont show you my weakness
i don't want your sympathy
i want to be left alone
i wont tell you that
i need your shoulder to cry on
i'm a fool
i'm rotting in the inside
i cant control this
the emotions overwelm me
all at the same time
i dont know what i feel
reaching for help
then pulling back my hand
"i can do without it"
no, i cant
pushing you away
but i want you here
i dont want to lie to myself
i dont want to admit i'm wrong
i dont want to take on this pain alone
i cant bring myself to ask for help
i'm a hopeless case of insanity
it's insane to let my pride be the gap
i think i'm just trying to protect you
what would you do if i let you see
that inside im not fit to be loved
maybe you dont deserve me
how could i be your friend
i dont even understand myself
i cant do this
i cant write this without crying
how true it sounds;
how true it be
what should i do now
what do you think i should do
i can see myself in the mirror
but then its not the real me is it
it is the one i pretend to be
the one i show when im all battered up inside
the one you see all the time
the part you think is me
but it isn't
explanation- this is a very confusing poem i wrote last year wen i was qite literally not right in the head. i did not feel good bout myself at all and i just wanted someone to tell me they cared, that someone loved me. i was also very angry at somebody which made me more angry at myself for being angry at them c its confusing.
DO ME A FAVOR AND DONT COPY THIS WHAT EVER YOU DO!!! I WROTE THIS MYSELF IT IS MY POEM NOT YOURS!
thanks
-Ami
poem 2
Im the girl who doesnt know shes beautiful
and then when you tell me I still dont believe it, but you keep telling me
Im the girl who will look in the mirror and see a monster
and then you tell me that Im not and I still think I am, but you keep telling me Im not
Im the girl who will sit in a corner and cry
and then you come and give me a hug and I keep crying, but you stay there through it all
Im the girl who doesnt want to hurt you
and so I push you away from me, but you refuse to leave
Im the girl who has the greatest friends in the world
and I wonder what I did to deserve them, but you say you know
explanation- this poem was originally writen to my best friend at the time telling her how i couldnt live without her and how i felt relying on her.
DO ME A FAVOR AND DONT COPY THIS WHAT EVER YOU DO!!! I WROTE THIS MYSELF IT IS MY POEM NOT YOURS!
thanks
-Ami
poem 3: help me to cry
i think someone shut my eyes off
they cant seem to cause a tear
i cant cry even though i want to
my moods too far off gear
i want to hurt myself
i want to cause me pain
if i try to stop doing wat i want to do
i think ill go insane
my minds screwed up
just make it stop
this stack of memories in my head
the painful ones on top
why cant i fall?
why cant i die?
why wont u help me?
help me to cry
break my heart
forever in two
and then so many more pieces
thats wat i need u to do
let go of me
just let me fall
it will hurt more if you do nothing
ignore my screams dont heed my call
but u wont let me go
you stay there by my side
no matter wat i say or do
it makes me wonder why
why u care
why you stay
why you love me
why cant i have my way
why your there
wat do you see
what do u know
whats so good about me
ill finally say
what you knew all along
im sorry i ran
i dont want you gone
i love you
explanation- this poem was written to make a point. it was also to my best friend at the time saying im sry i asked you to go away when i really wanted your help more than anything. saying that i cant do this by myself and i need your help. This especially acurate when im really low and depressed.
DO ME A FAVOR AND DONT COPY THIS WHAT EVER YOU DO!!! I WROTE THIS MYSELF IT IS MY POEM NOT YOURS!
thanks
-Ami
God people get a life!
so i go to school to today right
and i decided this morning i was gonna wear my hair different kinda crazy lookin just bcuz i want to
my sister laughed at me and is lik u can chjange it if ur fast
so im lik nah its not worth missin the bus over it
so i go to school and the first person i talk to (my friend) is lik wat were u thinkin?
i walk thru the hallways and i hear people snickering
people lik wat the hell did she do to her hair
im lik fuck u bitches
even tho i took it down later cuz the clips hurt
but i mean my god get a life!!!!
it all goes back to that old saying
"You laugh at me because im different, I laugh at you because you're all the same!"
luv u all!
comment on this if u want
-Ami
I LOVE JOHNNY!
=)
posted Feb 20
I LOVE JOHNNY!
im doing great!!!! =)
posted Feb 18
I LOVE JOHNNY!
i ami im sammy. how are you?
posted Feb 17
I LOVE JOHNNY!
nuthin much...im sammy by the way.
posted Feb 14
I LOVE JOHNNY!
cool....so how are you?
posted Feb 13
rage against a butterfly
omg i added you but my computer didn\'t get it i guess
well add me then and i will be your friend!! so what\'s
you name? i\'m jordan lol
posted Feb 12
Lovely Stephanie
i got a boyfriend :D
posted Feb 06
youandmek
i\'m pretty good how\'s life treating you?
posted Feb 05