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RAINBOWSXX
Age: 18
Location: Hinckley, IL
Joined On: Aug 26, 2006
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United States
Eric and Merrill
United States
Trent
Lakeland, FL
gigantic love
Plattville, IL
reality check ♥
I used to picture myself,
beautiful confident.
had friends, and was loved by many.
But today i looked in the mirror to find that
Reality and perfection is really a lie.
What i thought i saw, was nothing compared to what was really there.
Just like Platos Cave,
our minds lie to us to make us believe that what we see is really perfection.
Like your new sports car, to you its the best thing on earth! Its perfect,
But its onlt perfect because you don't KNOW anything other than what that car is and has!
Well homecoming was fun.
got TONS of compliments on my dress and my hair,
so i must of looked okay lol
Right now im just trying to keep busy,
trying to keep my mind off of him.
Because right now,
im not trying to get him,
I am trying to find myself,
because i don't know who i am,
i know what i am,
but i need to find my inner self,
and have peace with who i am.
i know sounds stupid, but its what i need right now,
the Teenage years are used to help find who you are,
so its my calling right now
Peace
.003
well
my life is very interesting,
i play halo2 almost 3 hours a day,
and im on purevolume too much,
when im at school, im never paying attention,
soccer on sundays,
which leaves almost no time to fix my piano,
or for singing lessons,
let alone school work,
i spend my study hall with shane,
which means no work gets done,
i write too much,
and talk too little,
and hardly any time to practice my bass ( her name is Shelly:))
i need a life,
badly.
*sigh*
someone give me a life!!!
mucho loveee,
Eva xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxxxxxooo
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.002
She sits down on the street corner,
hugging her knees to her chest as the wind blows through her hair
"hes not here anymore"
she says aloud, trying to see what would happen,
as she drops the rose she holding and lets it fly away into the distince.
The sky turns orange as the sun sets completey in the backround, and the street lamp flutters to turn on
A tear sliently falls down her cheeck as she buries her face into her knees,
wishing there to be a way.
She knew it was too good to be true
much too good
Her heart aches, as she struggles to her feet,
running.
Running from everything,
her past,
herself.
She wants to be alone,
alone with him.
As she runs, her dress trails behind her, following, but slowly.
And the faster she runs, the more she forgots about him.
Shes supposed to be with him today, joined forever.
"Forever is a long time you know", her head told her, but her heart said, "forever with him".
He heart surges from the mental picture of him smiling at her,
but then the picture of the accident flashes suddenly,
and her heart jumps to the pain,
"Too much pain" she thought.
And as she comes to a stop, out of breathe, she falls to the ground,
unaware of where she is, Sobbing
Her heart pounds through her chest, as she whispers one last word.
"forever"
as she slipped away, into the comfort of the dark.
.001
He couldn't bring himself to even look at me,
or even think about me,
am i really that ugly?
am i really that terrible?
and i thought that it could happen.
i knew things were getting to good,
and i knew something bad was going to happen,
i was overdue for a disaster
wow, and i thought things could change.
i hate being wrong....
<3[[R E B E C C A L Y N N]]<3
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posted Jan 11
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posted Jan 05