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WALLFLOWER
Age: 15
Location: minnesota
Joined On: Jul 01, 2007
Occupation: hot nurse
Website: http://myspace.com/42413339
you feel like dancing
hi, my name is emily
i could be the most down to earth person you ever meet, or maybe not
i enjoy coffee and sarcasm and minneapolis
i also like grapefruit juice and almost any fruit
i own a lot a lot a lot of clocks
i don't practice santeria; i ain't got no crystal ball
i'm impatient
i'm lame
you see stars that clear have been dead for years,
but the idea just lives on
"do you feel a certain sense of synergy between yourself and me?"
ah blink i love ya
"aunt mary says they have the darkness there,
they have the family disease,
they have the darkness there in their minds"
8)
"This moment or this chance they are the same thing. This moment and this chance they are the same and they are mine if I choose them and I do. I want them. Now and as long as I can have them they are both precious and fleeting and gone in the blink of an eye don't waste them. A moment and an opportunity and a life, all in the unseen tick of a clock holding me nowhere. My heart is beating. The wall are pale and quiet. I am surviving." - A Million Little Pieces (reading is cool)
macrame queens in the afternoon
and i'm in tune or did i speak too soon
punch drunk off of somebody's joke
what happened to the time?
i never request people on here because i'm socially retarded, even on the internet, thank you very much
watch this video and feel good about yourself for doing so
and watch this video because jack johnson really knows how it is
(i hate posting 2 in one day, but this is important)
I AM SO SICK!!!!! ahhhh ugh i feel dead
i'm going to go to bed, i just wanted to post this to remind myself to finish my other blog (and well this one now) tomorrow, because the chances of me going to school tomorrow are zero, thank you very much. dead people don't typically go to school, everyone knows that
also, this is my favorite jack johnson song ever! (it's all understood is a close second) (you'll have to wait for the chit-chat to end in the beginning before the song starts) i realized it as soon as i had bought in between dreams forever ago, when i was listening to the whole album for the first time, as soon as i heard it i was just like, hey! i want to listen to that a million times more!
watch the vid if you're cool
first of all, the lyrics (this will sound silly) literally touched my heart, hahaha oh my god how dumb am i? but when you listen to the words it's just like, AHH oh my god only one of the best song-writers in the world! and i love that harmonica (okay i know it's something else, but i like to think of it as a harmonica), because the very first instruments i was introduced to were the kazoo and the harmonica, as soon as i could figure out to use them i couldn't stop, just like reading. and then as soon as i could like, not be a little kid anymore, i was sitting on my dad's lap playing his drums (i even have polaroids of it, so authentic it'll make your heart melt) eh i have no idea why i'm writing this, i need to go to bed because i'm so sick and such.
okay so now it's may 13 and i am home sick, just like i thought.. so sick.. sick sick sick. ugh i am physically worn out. my whole body hurts, i'm super congested, i can't see because when i put my contacts in, my eyes got really dry (eyedrops didn't help at all) and i wish i knew where my glasses are, i lost them last year, and i even have a tooth ache (i don't have a single cavity and i brush my teeth twice a day, not fair at all) and on top of that, my lower cartilage piercing hurts again. but this is my fault because i bought a captive bead ring for it this weekend at the mall and i can't stop twisting it. so now i have a cotton ball soaked in ear piercing cleaner sitting on it. attractive, i know. ahhhh whatever... listening to atmosphere and azure ray are helping to keep my sunny side up, at least.. oh and i can always count on my kitty cat to make me smile, hahaha this is what i saw when i woke up. (this is the view from my bed, i picked up my camera and took a picture because it just looked ridiculous in my opinion)
hahahaha i don't know, i find it comical to see my cat staring at me while sitting on top of something at least 10 times as tall as him, like he owns my room or something. hahaha, okay, that is all
update, still may 13- i was watching grounded for life (one of the few shows i watch, the other two are lost and grey's anatomy, other than that i don't like to watch tv) because i had nothing to do because i'm home sick, and before, eddie had been my favorite character because he always talks in like this monotone-sarcastic way that makes me laugh, but now i think jimmy may be because, first of all, his favorite band is interpol, and and and, in the episode i watched, he was drinking bubble tea and enjoying it! hahahahaha, in my opinion bubble tea is the grossest beverage in the world
also, i need to get a swimsuit. this year, i'm not going to make the mistake of buying a black bikini because all that did was highlight the fact that i'm extremely pale and i cannot get a tan anymore (i used to tan in like, a day, when i was a kid) and also, i'm 25% italian so my ability to stay pale suprises me. i don't mind though, i don't want to be wrinkly and stuff, so it's all good. this time i'll just make sure my swimsuit is a light color. oh and also, today i'm enjoying thirteen senses very much
"now i'm low, i'm looking out, i'm looking in
way down, the lights are dimmer..."
sometimes i think that every single person in the world is crazy except for me
but then i realize that i'm just as crazy as the rest of them (i'll finish up yesterday's blog later, i don't feel like finishing it now)
the only thing is i'm a different kind of crazy, not in a bad way, just in a weird way, butttt according to most of society today, bad = weird, oh well...i'm not weird as in the sense of "oh yah i buy all my clothes at hot topic and i listen to death metal and i wear big black boots," yeah, no, more like, i'm way too observant for my own good and (though i hate to brag) too smart (i am very aware that i'm above average, i'm not making up lies, also my parents are very intelligent), and i think too much about things, and i daydream too much, and i care too much, and i don't really like to talk or text unless it's with someone who can actually carry out a conversation, and i'm not religious what-so-ever but unlike most non-religious people my age i have respect for all religions and beliefs, (i have never ever called someone a "jew" or made fun of scientology, unlike most people i know), and i'm really hating talking about myself right now, so let's just finish this long run-on sentence, shall we?
everyone who goes to my school is crazy, seriously, maybe it's just because i'm supposedly a "visual mathematician" and i "see the big picture," but everyone i know is way way way too obsessed with insignificant things that are just part of everyday life. for example, in my gym class, there are some girls (gym isn't co-ed in my high school, because the gym classes each have like 25 people in them, so we can't really have a 50-person class) who are just OBSESSED with winning if we're playing a sport. like, not even kidding. for example, right now we're playing ultimate frisbee and we're put into teams, and i think there is 7 people on my team, and 3 of the girls are ALWAYS yelling what to do, oh and let me just say- there is one girl who drives me crazy. she's not one of the insane 3, in fact she's really bad at ultimate frisbee but she's always telling the team what to do, like i'll be running to get open and she'll be standing way in the back of the court (and not open at all) yelling to me "emily, try to get open!" in her obnoxious whiny voice. i cannot stand it when people in my grade tell me what to do, (i'm getting quite off-topic, i know) seriously they have no right to, and i'm extremely far from bitchy and i'm pretty dang respectful, but i swear if she gives me one more "suggestion" tomorrow, i am going to walk right up to her and yell in her face "if i need your advice, i'll ask for it, so how about you try and get open for once?" (the only thing she ever tells me is to get open, by the way) seriously, i'm not outspoken at all and i try to just go with the flow, but if you really want to test me like that, i'm not just going to take it
i don't know why everyone is so angry though, and not just in gym, but all the time. when i'm angry, sometimes i'll have some outbursts and such, but later i just let my mind drift off to something else like when i graduated eigth grade and how everything went perfect that night, and how fun it had been going with my two best friends up to the mall of america and picking out almost-matching dresses (they weren't really matching, they were just all black and white) and i remember dancing (i LOVE to dance, i'm not in a class for it or anything, but i dance pretty much everyday to almost any kind of music) for a couple hours until like, midnight (after midnight we had to go home) and being so SO happy that the 4 long years of middle school were finally over and i would be starting high school and then i would be off into the world and be totally free... i really love to think about my life after high school and college, by the way, it's one of my favorite things to daydream about.. also, the day that my 2 best friends and i went to MOA, we had made these disgusting burnt-but-gooey homemade pancake things that we had put smashed up butterfingers into in an attempt to make them yummy (i'm laughing so hard right now, you really had to be there) and then on the way up to MOA we stopped at subway and there was obviously someone working there who was very new, and like, snapped his gloves on when he put them on and we laughed so hard at that after we left, oh boy... now i'm all cooled down about "try to get open!" oh man.. and at the mall of america, we had gone into the store deb or something like that, and one of my friends had bumped into some girl and my friend was like "oh, excuse me.." and then the girl she bumped into went over to her friend and was like "that girl just booty-bumped me!!" hahahahahah oh god i'm laughing so hard right now, ah memories.. okay, so i'm done with talking about how everything is crazy, because i'm in a good mood from thinking about the end of eigth grade, so i think i'll just wrap up this blog right about now
take my advice on this
if you ever have to make up for a day you missed at school for gym, and your school is like mine, (so you have to use a heart-rate monitor and keep your heart-rate in the "zone" for 25 minutes) and you decide to go for a "brisk walk" like i did, and you like to listen to music, and if you're like me you'll choose an album of songs to do your oh-so-cool brisk walk to, do NOT choose "transatlanticism" by death cab for cutie! stupid stupid stupid idea, i mean, i love death cab for cutie, but the songs on transatlanticism have just such a slow rhythm, it's hard to keep your heart-rate in "the zone" (143-163 beats per minute) because i wanted so bad to just walk slowly with the music, and i really just felt like listening to the whole album because i'm weird like that (and i'm still using a borrowed ipod because i'm still poor and i still don't have one of my own, let's not forget a total DOUCHE stole my ipod, but i could have changed it to some other more fast-paced songs, but i really wasn't in the mood to do that.) ah yeah whatevs, i still managed to keep my heart-rate in the "zone" (i am really really tired of putting the hyphen between heart and rate, so i'm going to talk about something else)
uh happy mother's day, to all the mothers reading this, but you mothers should get back to your children
i've got a lot more to write about on here, such as my morning, what i bought at the mall today and how i feel about malls (reading it might make you laugh, but it might also make you think i'm a loser), how i go through my favorite artist/band to listen to at the moment (it changes every few days, somedays it's just like, oh how i love motion city soundtrack, somedays it's like, wow i just can't stop listening to the fray, ya get the picture?) and how right now it is mister jack johnson (love love loved his music since the summer of last year though, when i found out about him and bought all his albums, but ya know you come and go with how much you listen to an artist's music you love) buuuuut i'm going to watch the most recent episode of lost on abc.com, and then i'll finish this later today or maybe tomorrow, and i'll leave you with some of my favorite of jack johnson's lyrics (not my favorite of his happy, carefree lyrics though, my favorite of his "wow he really knows what he's talking about" lyrics)
"it wasn't me," says the boy with the gun
"sure i pulled the trigger, but it needed to be done
because life's been killing me ever since it begun
you can't blame me because i'm too young"
"you can't blame me, sure the killer was my son
but i didn't teach him to pull the trigger of the gun
it's the killing on his tv screen
you can't blame me, it's those images he's seen"
"you can't blame me," says the media man
"i wasn't the one who came up with the plan
i just point my camera at what the people want to see
it's a two way mirror and you can't blame me"
"you can't blame me," says the singer of the song
or the maker of the movie which he based his life on
"it's only entertainment, as anyone can see
it's smoke machines and makeup, you can't fool me"
it was you, it was me, it was every man
we've all got the blood on our hands
we only receive what we demand
and if we want hell, then hell's what we'll have
i would turn on the tv, but it's so embarrassing
to see all the other people, don't know what they mean
it was magic at first, but let everyone down
and now this world is gonna hurt, you better turn it around
(okay, so that was pretty much the whole song except the first verse which is repeated at the end, but you really need that much of the lyrics to realize what he's saying, you know?)
update: oh my god!!! i just watched the lost episode i said that i was going to, ah so so so intense! well now i have something to totally scramble my brain with until the next episode, oh my... oh and it's way too late to write about the things i said i would write about, i'll write them in here tomorrow probably, okay good night for now
i don't feel apathetic anymore
and the song "take me out" by franz ferdinand reminds me of the song "lady" by lenny kravitz
by the way, uh check out mister g. love's music, because it's good and stuff
i'd post some lyrics or something but like, you'll have to listen to some songs or something because i can't really choose any verses or anything, so yeah
new death cab for cutie album in three days! neat, i'm excited
new coldplay album in june! even more excited, i love coldplay, and the new singles, and i like how they're changin' it up, i really like the "rougher" sound of violet hill, and i LOVED the string instruments in viva la vida, i used to play viola (sadly not anymore) and i absolutely loved it, and i used to be into classical music when i was younger, amongst others (like the beatles) but i hope coldplay doesn't completely lose the dreamy sound that they had previously, especially on the album "a rush of blood to the head"
and uh yeah yeah yeah i'm going to finish this blog later because i'm going to go watch a movie, and then i'll write about it on here or something, oh and a little thing for you to know- i love the vines, verrry good
okay so now it's later, and i really don't feel like writing about the movie i watched, it wasn't very good anyways and i don't just like to bad-mouth movies and stuff, if i don't like it i don't complain about or anything, i only write about movies if i like them. (but it's not like i never bad-mouth things, see the blog titled "things i think are dumb") also i'm so tired, i don't know why either, i fell asleep on the couch last night at like, 5:30 PM or something, and then i woke up at around 10:00 PM and i just got in my bed and slept until like, around 9:30 this morning, so that's around a total of 16 hours of sleep (i just counted on my fingers quick so that might be off by a few hours) and now it's 10:04 PM and i'm loving mr. william fitzsimmons sweet songs and i'm going to go to bed, and i really recommend listening to the song "funeral dress" by him, because the words are so nice and the sound is so unique but so sweet, but actually more like bittersweet, but it's good good good, check it out
"on a rack in a store for a discount price
but the color's been changed to a black from white
though the difference will probably be lost on me, anyways
and don't worry if laughter is on your lips
'cause you wouldn't be you if you changed for this
and i won't measure love from the tears that drip, from your face"
uh yes
today i am apathetic
i have no feelings about this
only things i had any feelings for today were receiving money (finally) and realizing maggie gyllenhaal is my favorite female actress
and now i'm listening to interpol
"you should be in my space
you should be in my life
you should be in my space
you should be in my life
you could be in my space"
markdoubleday
Hi! I've got a couple new songs up.. if you have time,
check them out. thanks
;D www.purevolume.com/markdoubleday
posted 2 week ago
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see yaaa next time u need to buy new clothes make sure
that you don't forget how hard i tried to convince u.
posted 2 week ago
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haha nah i think they're just trying to scare you. its
not that bad.
posted 2 week ago
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hahah thats how we do it on the east coast! but
seriously the homeless people in DC are pretty intense.
be careful down there. especially at night. because
that city really empties out at night and the
population is like 85% homeless people then 15%
tourists.
posted 2 week ago
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haha right on but if u think about it... our shirts are
so cheap that $12 is peanuts compared to the $1000 they
already dropped on DC ;-D
posted 2 week ago
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totally broke!?? thats no excusee you can make your
parents buy one =D their money is just as useful! ;D
posted 2 week ago
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hey! i'm matt. and i'm bored. this profile is for my
"clothing company" if youre bored check out the stuff
i have posted and lemme kno wat u think. or if u wanna
make my day and maybe get a shirt... but anyway...
whats up?
posted 2 week ago
Caaaah
I'm fine. I'm going to the beach today :) kisses
posted Apr 19