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random outbreak.

This whole "blog" thing is new to me but i guess i figured what the hell i dont have any friends on here so why not. (if your reading this your probably the first and only one that will) I recently made moved from a small town in Iowa to Riva, Maryland and its a big jump and huge difference. I can't say that i didnt want to move cuz a big part of me was fine with it but after being here for only a little more then a month. i wanna go home, and here isnt it. Im 16 and have never moved in my life before this and its not the new start i expected. i have no friends and no one here even bothers to get to know me or even speak to me in that matter. I have had my fair share of drugs and alcohol in my life cuz i felt that i had nothing else to confide in. but here i feel like everyday and with everything i do in the back of my head i always have this picture of me on a beach all alone and all of a sudden i get this real alone feeling in me. i dont know if that is normal but i have never experienced it before. I listen to indie acoustic music to sooth my soul :) hah. i recently came across a band called 1Life and their song Life Without Love sums up my feelings of love. i have never had a true long relationship and not many guys in my life have shown interest in me as more then a friend and im sure its because im not skinny enough, or pretty enough, or rich enough, or not outgoing. but the thing is..is that iim loud with the ones that know me, im rich in love, pretty inside, and well i guess i just wish a girl did not have to go anorexic for some to notice them. I still.... think fortune cookies will come true, listen to boy bands, ask my grandma for cookies and milk, wish on the stars, wish i could grow up faster even though i know when im old ill wish i was young again, fall asleep to music, get candy from the quarter machines in the malls, think my dog knows my mood and hears my stories, take long walks off the bike trails, and always hug my parents good night. People tell me i have tear drop eyes and smile upside down....things you wouldnt know just by looking at me. would you take the time to get to know me?

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