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PYROCHIK002000
Age: 18
Location: Blanchard, OK
Joined On: Jul 19, 2006
I'm Meg. I live in a culturless wasteland. And will untill I go to college. Music hits me pretty hard, where it hurts. I love: Late night phone calls that last over 3 hours, Lying on the trampoline at all hours of the night ( I like nighttime), Acting insane simply because i'm '16', My VW Bug, Speaking my mind, The summer, My Friends, and God. If you have a question, ask. The worst thing I could do is say 'No'. I'm sappy, cheesy, and a hopeless romantic. I'm inconsistent, lazy, and constantly confused. I act different than I feel sometimes. I'm a little too big for my own skin and sometimes it gets annoying because I cant' do what I want to do. - Stolen from Caleb's Pv. But It was ment for me. ♥
Don't Burn My Ears.
I hate hate HATE when i screw up.
I have internal conflicts like no other; and I can't controll it. Aparently its obvious, but people rarely see what is right in front of thier faces. And i pray to god I can trust some of my friends.
I'm about to tell someone something, and need a certain phone call to help me.
I screwed up; but i know i'm over exageratting. I always am. I'm always a mess, and self distructive. This is as bad as it gets....and the hole just gets deeper.
I feel like i'm building this image of myself that I show everyone who hasn't known me for awhile; just to play it safe. IT isn't fair to myself, and isn't fair to them. But sometimes, its easier than hurting myself, and them.
'A picture is worth a thousand words, but which ones?'
I'm not fair to people, i'm horrid, I make terrible mistakes. I feeel the wieght of 16. You don't understand. I made a mistake. I can't make mistakes. Or ones I can't just paint over.
And the bad thing is....even if they forgive me....can i forgive myself?
Hopein' for the best, hopein' nothign happens.
Well, I'm so freaking excited about some stuff:
1. Friday I can take my driving test, but am wating untill monday to do it so I dont' have to miss school
2. I went to church tonight, And I really think God spoke to me. I mean, I've really been tryign to live a true Christian life, and it hast to be the hardest thing I've ever done. But God spoke to me and I trust him. With everything. I don't have to sweat the small stuff anymore!
3. Thursday & Friday I've declared 'The days of Purgatory', we have 9 weeks' finals at my school, and thursday I have test on even hours: Chemistry, Biology & Literature. I'm good on the last two...sopposed to be studying the first one. & then friday i have odd hours: Band, History I, Newspaper & Geometry. Two of these are my electives, the other two I need to study. But in these 'Days of Purgatory' we (my friends & I) shall feast upon junk food and energy drinks, clothe our bodies in sweats & hoodies, and listen to wayy too much music. Ahh I love being 16.
4. Hopefully over spring break, I'll be able to see Miss Roze, Samantha & Caleb!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well caleb dosen't know this yet. But he does now! haha!
5. My Novel is coming along nicely, caleb, its a big file but I need you to read it so far & tell me how its coming. Someone besides teachers that are astonished that I'm writing something that isn't for a grade!.
Other than that my day has been great. The ECU Wind Symphony came to our school & performed so I got out of half of 6th hour & half of 7th hour. It was great. Tonight at church was fun, too. But next sunday is gonna be a drag cause most of the youth are going to Mexico for a mission trip.
I'm so freaking bored and lookign for an excuss not to study. So call if you want. (ehhem, Caleb.)
&&your slow, shaking fingertips...
This past weekend has been a buzz..haha
And my boyfriend and I had a religious expireince (just kissing you guys).
And I realized something, I'm not fair to most guys because of Caleb.
but neways.
I'm so sick of the stupid joel shit, You have no idea, I'm the only one over joel in this whole town. I don't care what he's doing, or saying, or doing to his girlfriend. In fact, I could care less...oh waight, I couldn't. I'm sick and tired of hearing about him. I'm INSANE about my boyfriend. He's just amazing. He's so different from anyone i've ever dated (well ...almost) And its refreshing to have someone actually care about you. Not just say sonething and do another.
But yes. And Caleb this is to you:
I honestly don't know if i'd be alive right now, without you. But I know this much, I wouldn't be the same.
Good night all,
Well almost ...I have insomina....
A Blend of Fear & Passion.
Well, the last two days has been my most interesting and greatest days this whole year.
I finally have a blog (this one) that if someone reads it....they'll understnad or either won't care. Which is nice.
And the greatest feeling in the world is to have someone understand you completly. To know what you're goign to say before you even say it. Its amazing, I'm sure its probably better than sex. but yess Caleb, thank you.
And thats all folks!
Karpenter's Kids
Did you get my message, or did it not send properly?
posted May 25
unnatural_infatuation
*guilty smile* tee hee, i didnt do anything, although u
were there when i actually turned 16 so yea...lol,
we\'ve just kinda been hangin, no drugs, sex, but
plenty of rock and roll...lol, ttyl!
posted Mar 18
unnatural_infatuation
srry, mom took my cell phone and kept showin up in my
room so i couldnt use the home phone...i\'ll try 2night
but we\'re goin to my g-mas so idk...ttyl
posted Mar 17
afroboy
lol that\'d be funny
posted Mar 16
afroboy
2nite? doubt it, maybe 2maro, whats ur myspace?
posted Mar 16
afroboy
hey whats goin on?
posted Mar 16
unnatural_infatuation
your awesome! so heres your comment gorgeou ;)
posted Mar 11
unnatural_infatuation
ok i got it workin but the gt camp pics arent on this
comp so i\'ll put it up later...and yes the long tongue
thing was weird but i got 2 comments (just today) on
how long my tongue is...lol
posted Mar 09