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*PUNXXX18*
Age: 19
Location: west alexander
Joined On: Dec 05, 2006
Occupation: back room coordinator at tj maxx
Website: http://www.myspace.com/punxx...
thecodeman
martins ferry ohio
Incubusjr
My Sick Sad Little World
HI!!! my name is steph.
i'm 18.
i have ocd.
and i am most definitaly dyslexic.
so dont make fun of my spelling if its backwards.
i'm straight-edge.
about everythng except for sex.
i like it.
a lot.
being straight-edge i mean.
dont ask me why i do it, cuz thats just fucking stupid.
does it really matter to you if i do drugs or drink or not?
i hate computers.
and ipods.
i have a cd player.
i have over 1000 cd's.
i'm in love with the idea of love.
and music.
i listen to JUST ABOUT everything.
i'm not big on rap tho.
i have a fiance.
he's awesome.
and we just had a little boy on 5-25-08
his name is jayke ehron lilley.
and he's awesoem too.
we are getting married in july.
yay us!
and if u even think about telling me i'm too young to get married, OR raise a child i won't talk to u.
so just forget it.
i love my dog.
i love my friends.
dont fuck with me or the people i care about, or i WILL stab you in the face.
really old poem that i found on my compy.
depressing thoughts weigh down my mind
i just want them to stop
i have no reason to feel this way
i wish everything would go away
you turn away from me
i'm ugly
i'm weak
i dont even almost fit
your idea of perfect
i guess i had you fooled
but now you see through it all
my fake smiles
my stupid lies
"nothin's wrong
i just dont feel good"
i try to think about what i've got
but i get lost in what i dont
would it be too much to ask
for you to put your arm arond me
would it be too much to ask
to make it look like you care
these aren't your worries
its not your problem
you lay beside me now
sleeping peacefully
i've told youabout all of this
a couple times before
but you lay beside me now
sleeping peacefully
you are not facing me
your arms are not around me
you preobably dont even know
that i am wide awake
im with you all the time
but im more alone than ever
i dont know where to start
lokking for the pieces
of my very broken heart
another poem...
a face without a name
a step without a pace
a forest without a tree
a family without me
a stare without a glance
a love without romance
a star without a shine
a poem without a line
a mirror without reflection
a look without expression
a lie without confession
a perfect imperfection
feeling creative...
in the dark
i call ur name
i scream for u
loud
scared
it hurts my throat
but ur not there
you didnt hear
how much i want you
you dont even realize
how much i care
i dont know what you think
if you dont see it
or just choose to ignore it
dont pretend i dont exist
you know you cant live without me
lie to yourself
but its hurting me
i know the truth
even if you refuse to admit
you have feelings for me
i can feel it in my heart
my head tells me to forget you
i cant have you
if you tell yourself
you dont want me
dont deny it
you wont regret it
it'll be fun
if you give yourself to me
a lovely poem... read it fuckers!!
residue
broken tooth from fist once loved
scars in unseen ways
trust betrayed, in flicted harm
lost in emotion's maze
repect denied, flows both ways
diminishing esteem
sadness seeps to aching morrows
laughs a far off dream
soul deep anger smoulders darkly
sustaining lifelong pain
time goes on, fades memories
deep wounds tho, still remain
baby fat...
ugh
so like this is way crazy
im gettng bigger
but i havent gained even a pound yet
which im not complaining i guess
thats less weihgt i'll hafta lose afterwards
i am 14 1/2 weeks n loving every minute of it!
john, the sleepwalker
and he is cute as a button :D he gonna be a
heartbreaker :b
posted Jun 10
john, the sleepwalker
i been good :) im so in love its unreal.
posted Jun 10
john, the sleepwalker
aw im excited :)
posted Apr 05
xFuckXxCoreX
haha yeah i know. those pictures arent exactly new, i
actually do shave my mustache now, it makes me look a
lot better lol
posted Apr 03
john, the sleepwalker
haha thanks...:) you got my back!! so how is the
whole bby thing going? mine is 8 months old :) she says
da da and crawls backwards lmao why not forwards? i
really dont know but she picks up speed going backwards
lmao! :)
posted Apr 03
john, the sleepwalker
no lol i love her....but the timing is just
wrong...when the time is right il have her
posted Mar 27
xFuckXxCoreX
haha that's ok. you live in washington, i live in
michigan. i was just sayin, you look sexy in your
pictures lol
posted Mar 26
john, the sleepwalker
haha good...i had my heart broken lol
posted Mar 25