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PUNKSNOTDEADXX
Age: 17
Location: Kent!!! England!!!!! Best country!! Crapiest Leader!!!!
Joined On: Jun 27, 2006
My Chemical Romance 9-1-0
sunny scotland
Fia [Is A DickHead]
Up Your Bum.
My names Imy, Imo, Imbob or bobby (i respond 2 all). I love punk, rock, emo and lots of other music. My fav bands are Green Day, MCR, Eighteen Visions, Taking Back Sunday, the all american rejects, papa roach, less than jake etc......My mates R Great and u gotta check out their band www.purevolume.com/theantidotesxx. I am mentioned but they implied that i wos gay!! V mean and not true. anyways time to get on wit life in general
IMOXxX
We are the fit cat brigade.....join us if you will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Below is just a legendary lyric
sweet sadness runs through these veins (not an emo moment line in new song!)LOL
Hiya!!!
So yeah i realised recently that life was getting really borin. I didnt feel like i was achieving anything. So i thought bout what i could do. And not very much came up. i was just thinking and suddenly this lyric came into my head ^^^^^^ the title der!!!!!^^^^^^^^ yeah and i thought that it was quite cool cos ive never really been good at writing lyrics but then suddenly i got one full song in me head and a chorus and verse for another one. And theyre not cheesy (well hopefully not) so yeah! Im debating but the lyrics up but u guys will probs laugh!!! even though ur all me maties!!!! (wow great mates i have) !!! Joking im sure u guys wont laugh. heres the chorus of one of the songs:
I hear about you every day
Not in the way i want to know
The tales that stole our hearts
are now repeated in a million songs....
sweet sadness
Runs through these veins.
So yeah leave a comment if u think its good or if u think it crap!! either will do!! Yeah Bye then Guys and Girls!!!! Have fun wreaking havoc and Mayhem!!
Imoxx
Lets move on shall we!
Right well the last 2 blogs were distinctly emo indeed! luckily today brings happier notes!! I was thinking about what to do when i feel depressed and i decided that im going to make a scrapbook! it will have all acheivemnts ive made that im proud of, pictures of all my mates and pictures which i think i look pretty in.!! and entrys of really good days tlike trips and other various things. i think it will work. Cos when i feel like i have no friends or im a bad friend ill look at the piccy and feel happy (they will include quotes and stuff) and when im havin an ugly day i can just look at the pictures and realise that i am pretty (quite often have those bad days) The acheivment section will make me feel like i have accomplished th9ings in my life and that im not just a big fat (wait small thin)slob with no acheivements in life!!
So yeah here is why im happy in Bad points and good points!
Bad
Im failing my EXAMS!!!!!!
Good
Its Chrismas soon!!
My Murder Mystery Party soon!! YAY
MCR in MArch so YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and The Classic Crimes album is coming soon!! Wo0otness! I LOVE THE CLASSIC CRIME THEYRE FUCKING AWESOME
so yeah More gd points
Love Love Love
Imoxx
Fuck! Ive ruined my whole life now
i dont wanna fall out with my current friend sthey do mean all the world to me. Its just that i need to air my views or my head will be on its way to smaking itself against a wall. I dont wanna make anuyone feel guilty bout this message but my mate has been talking to me through messages on purevolume and theyve made me feel crapper. She made me feel like im a crap friend because she3 said that she was forced to be happy by us. that she was hardly ever herslef and gave the impression that she could never to to us well me.. the desk isnt built so i cant smack my head on the table so plan b fail life completely. dont try in exams and maybe everyone will forget about me and ill just fade away...
So life will have to go on... WITHOUT ME
I really think that i have a mixture of chronic tiredness and depressiveness!!!! i wos reading this book which was about how 2 tell if u were depressed (my mums i SWEAR) and it all seemed to fit.
1) i can realise what the fuck is wrong with my life but cant be bothered to do anything
2)I always think and sometimes pretend that something terrible happened to me and what people would to i that happened like being attacked and punched or being in a car crash. It makes me get the right reactions from people that make me happy. Surely thats not right. I have to pretend to be hurt or dead or in a coma for my friends and family to take me seriously.
3) i also think what it would be like to have a proper boyfriend. one who liked me for who i was but then i think u must be FUCKING kidding. NOBODY MUST WANT TO HANG OUT WITH YOU. Im surprised that my current set of 'Friends' put up with me. They give signs though. The way all my ideas fade into the background. That if one of the others wants to do something the thing that i suggested will go out the window and we have to do what they say. Every time i make a joke everyone takes it seriously then gives me greif about it.
Im fucking ugly
Im not funny
Im immature
Im not self confident
I pretty much fucking suck
I have to gho now and build a desk so that in 2 days time i can whack my head on it repeatedly whilst thinking how the fuck im supposed to sort out my fucking life as its such a fucking mess as im failing my exams so i wont get into sixth form. If i dont then im fucked. I will never be able to acheive anything. So i guess by ther time ive finished thinking the above then ill whack my head harder and numb out the pain.........................................
As depression sets in...
Yep emo moment comencing NOW!!!
so today i found out that one of my best friends did something but she pretended dhe hadnt. the my other 'friend' atrted
being really really bitchy to me and insulting me. The problm is my best mate just sat there whilst my other mate insulted me when my best mate could have stopped it by saying that she did do something. This really hurt me as it made me feel like she didnt mind someone insulting in front of her face. It made me feel like she was being a bad friend and after past experience everytime ive felt that ive grown away from my mates. i dont want this to happen biut i think that it was a serious misjudgment of her!! I have accepted her apology but i still feel angry! It may sound insignificant to you but meh. It HURT me.
That sent me into a deep depression which i am still suffering from now. Im listening to Billy Talent to releave my anger but it doesnt seem to work.
Im now going 2 go and have another beer and probvably cry some time tonight!
Cherrio Wotwot
Imoxx
Fia [Is A DickHead]
lmao guess who it isss...................... xfiax
posted Jan 03
Fia [Is A DickHead]
lmao guess who it isss...................... xfiax
posted Jan 03
tone369
well, fine. thanks, i\'ll check your friends band when
i get home, i\'m now in the office and can\'t turn up
the volume. yeah, i\'m glad if you check out mine too.
rock on!
posted Nov 29
AGrrlCalledKill
yeah itsd really good my love! XxX
posted Feb 01
Fia [Is A DickHead]
hehe..that message was kind impressive ghey!!
weeell..I told u kinda where im goin..will check
again!! hehe xfiax
posted Jan 24
Fia [Is A DickHead]
hehe....was gurd thankies ures?? haha lolz....wellll
the care bear crew is an immense club that we
started... we have badges, and a god, and free stuff,
and a club house...and......guess who\'s care bear no
1??? SANTAA!!!!!!!! lol so yeah..i u wanna join..u
have to tyoe a message with ure eyes closed and we will
judge the geekyness of it!!! hehe lol xfiax
posted Jan 21
Krepid
Argh! I can\'t really explain the whole story of the
Care Bear Crew.. coz i actually have to go now, but go
ask fia, she knows ^^ Peace out! Cya monday!
posted Jan 21
Krepid
Ok ok then, i wont laugh on the outside, ill just laugh
in my mind ok? =P Yeah my weekends been pretty dire
actually! I was so unbelievably bored on saturday its
not even funny.. I sort of had to start making stuff in
order to amuse myself! Hence.. the creation of.. THE
CARE BEAR CREW! I\'m Care Bear Number 2, Fia is 3, Kat
is 4, Toine is 5, dunno who 1 is though lol!
posted Jan 21