Posted June 15, 2007
I haven't seen you in what seems like years,
We haven't talked, we've both been too busy fighting the tears.
I miss you, the talks we had, the laughs we shared, the ease of our love.
I miss the mingling of our breath, your warmth in the night, the scent of your hair in the morning.
I miss the taste of your skin, the soft glow of your eyes, the gentle curves of your body.
I miss your voice, your presence, your light, your life, your love.
The worst of it all is how its all my fault.
I pushed too hard, I didn't love you well enough, deep enough, hard enough.
I didn't fight hard enough, I didn't beg you to stay, I kept my pride and now it's the bitterness of it I'm left with.
I'm so sorry, sorry for not loving you, for not fighting for you, for not being worthy of a single moment you graced me with.
I wish I could have been better for you, I wish you could have stayed.
I wish you could have been here to alleviate the dim pallor of a world I now exist in.
I wish I could have saved you from myself, I wish the world could have proved kinder to the both of us.
I wish so many things which will never come to pass, and yet I still hope them because, after all, you loving me should never have been and yet it was.
Please forgive me even if you could never come back, dearest love.
