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The future is a scary thing....

I'm so lost. I'm moving to Texas...which I'm ok with...but I'm going to miss Cali so much. I'm still not even over the last move and here I am getting ready to leave everything behind again. It sucks having a dad in the army sometimes. Its not all that bad I guess....I get to travel....I meet tons of cool new people....I'm introduced to new things all the time. But I'm sick and tired of leaving everyone behind. I've fucked up this year so badly I know its hurting my future decisions badly. I already can't go to USC for the summer program because I might be taking summer school....I'm not even sure I'll graduate this year. Its like everything I used to care for and worked hard for doesn't mean a thing anymore. I'm so close in life to having to make my own decisions and growing up that I'm scared what I've done makes me so unprepared for it all. I'm just flat-out scared of the future outcomes I guess. Hopefully this move will help me get back on track. Another reason I like moving....fresh starts! Well, sorry to have bored you.
Penelope

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