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one hundred dollar bill
Posted September 23 | Leave a Comment
I heard something that really inspired me today.... If I offered you a one hundred dollar bill would you take it? What if I crumbled it up? What if i crumbled it up and stomped on it? what if I crumbled it up, stomped on it and then spat on it? Assuming you answered yes to all these questions...why would you still want that hundred dollar bill? because it hasn't lost its value, right? Then why is it that when we crumble and get stomped on and spat on in life do we feel like we aren't worth any… read more
Where did I sign?
Posted May 19 | Leave a Comment
When was the defining moment when we stopped eating bugs and playing hide-and-go-seek and started picking our own boyfriends and girlfriends and what colleges we would attend. Who sat me down and asked me if I wanted to grow up? What dotted line did I sign? When is it that we finally reach that age where we stop making mistakes. When we fall into the same traps of neverending cycles that pull us into adulthood. The more I let my mind wander the more depressed I become. More and more unanswered… read more
a boy to love
Posted June 23 | Leave a Comment
have you ever loved someone so much that it scares you? to have so much to loose is a nauseating thing. i hold him as tight as i can in hopes that someday he wont see what everyone else sees. a pointless girl with nothing to offer. sometimes i just look at him when he isnt paying any attention to me and just think to myself, "why the hell did he pick me?, what is so special about me that he wants to spend time with me?, and how the fuck did i get so lucky?" i am writing to you as a girl tha… read more
a name just like yours
Posted June 16 | Leave a Comment
have you ever wondered that the person you hate the most just so happens to be just like you. that maybe this person has found what you have found and has found it to be just as distasteful. maybe you hate this person because you are reminded of yourself every time you look at them. and maybe them likewise. they are reminded of the failure they have become and the uncertain truth that lies behind your very teeth. the very thing you loathe the most is yourself. maybe this person is exactly what… read more
maybe im not done being angry
Posted June 16 | Leave a Comment
i find it harder and harder to let go of my past. one i was not yet willing to part with. to hang up my patch infested vest and put aside my boot's. stash away my bullet belts and mini-skirts with holes. to stop the pain killers and all night beer fest's of irish drunkenness. maybe i wasnt ready to become who i am... nobody asked me you know. i miss being a cheerleader at the tattoo parlors and the 4a.m. phone calls. i miss the smells, the taste the fuck-off life style. maybe im not done being… read more
All We Have Is This Street Noise
Posted July 31 | Leave a Comment
take it back but not too far. start a fight but keep it calm. now raise him up but not too high. start to sweat but keep it dry. pull him close but not too much. push them back but not too hard. cut it open but not too deep. shed a tear but not too many. scream his name but not too loud. understand but please dont care. dont break his nose but make him bleed. have a heart but hate the lies. pop a pill but do not die. they look so different but they're the same! read more
Dear You,
Posted July 22 | Leave a Comment
im tired of this place and the people in it. everyone pisses me off. i just feel like taking a fucking bat to the worlds skull. i fake a smile and force a laugh. i try to pretend like nothing happened and we are all still the same. isnt there anyone left in this world that is worth giving a fuck about. i pop pills just to keep myself alive. read more
And She Will Be Loved
Posted March 10 | Leave a Comment
when will i be worth just a little more respect when will it involve a smile and me not getting recked so what if i have problems and a somewhat meaner side i stomp around in my combat boots with a somewhat lesser pride so what if i have problems and cuts i cant explain and pray each night that on your birthday he will make it rain he tells me that he loves me and then screws another chick some would call him Brad Pitt, but i just call him prick he tells me just to suck it up and take… read more
How to know if you might be a punk...
Posted January 20 | Leave a Comment
when living just isnt enough anymore. when the only place you feel safe is in the pit. when you lie to yourself and call them mom and dad. when you scream at the ceiling to help how much it hurts. when the only one you love is the only one they all hate. when you want to take a pair of scissors to every emos bangs. when the only place you smile is in his bedroom with a beer in your hand. when you pass out in a ditch and find no missed calls on your cell when you wake up. when you accidently pa… read more
Shut Up And Listen
Posted December 10 | Leave a Comment
we all make the biggest deal out of the smallest things. take a look around, the world is fucked. i hear so many people complain about so many things. i guarentee you that the person next to you has had it ten times worse. we all need to start being thankful for what we have. we're a society where its people have gone to shit. what's worse? we get more and more fucked over by the generation. stop shedding your tears little emo kids and try to save a life instead of taking one. glorifying suici… read more
Because He's Worth It
Posted November 21 | Leave a Comment
I'd drown myself if you could breath for another second I'd bleed to death if your heart would beat just one more time I'd vanish myself if it meant that you'd see the world I'd fall if it kept you standing on both feet I'd stay down in hell if it kept you an angel I'd hang for you if it spared you some pain You're the only one that was ever worth the suffer I'd love you forever, and I meant it. read more
The Joke Is On You
Posted November 18 | Leave a Comment
I thought that family meant forever That thought I had you did so sever Attached to me you did not grow So now I've become your family foe Nine months long, but one day short Around this heart I built a fort I kept out the bad, but let in the good I lost my parents like no kid should I never spoke a word to you The ones you whispered were but a few I'm stronger now don't be mistaken The love you stole was not worth taking What started out as an angry letter Ended up as something better I'm wr… read more
Your Big Sister
Posted November 18 | Leave a Comment
if i could be there i hope you know i would. if i could find you then i'd stop looking. if you need my help i want you to know i'm on my way. i hate them i hope you can understand that, but i'll love you until i die. it makes me mad that i can't help you through things and tell you everything will be alright. if you cry when i'm not there please know that i'm never far from your heart. don't worry about me because i'm not worth it. if you exist please know that i love you. i'm sorry, your big… read more
