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PAULISDEAD67
Age: 18
Location: My Favorite Boy's Bed
Joined On: Jul 17, 2006
Occupation: Aspiring Porn Star
Website: www.pandora.com, www.atomict...
BoyThatWearsCamo
Coram ,NY
karpenter's kids
Highland Village, Texas
If she wants to dance and drink all night then theres no one that can stop her.
Shes going until the house lights come up or her stomach spills onto the floor.
This night is going to end when were damn well ready for it to be over.
Worked all week long now the music is playing on our time.
We do what we do to get by, and then we need a release.
You get mixed up with the wrong guys.
You get messed up on the wrong drugs.
Sometimes the party takes you places that you didnt really plan on going.
When people see the track marks on her arms she knows what theyre thinking.
She keeps on working for that minimum,
as if a high school education gave you any other options.
They dont know nothing about redemption.
They dont know nothing about recovery.
Some people just ain't the type for marriage and family.
No mother ever dreams that her daughters going to grow up to be a junkie.
No mother ever dreams that her daughters going to grow up to sleep alone.
Shes out of step with the style.
She dont know where the actions happening.
You know the downtown club scene ain't nothing like it used to be.
You reach a point where theres not a lie in the world
that you could use to make the boys believe your still in you twenties. They keep getting younger dont they, baby.
Shes not waiting for someone to come over and ask for the privilege.
She can still here that Rebel Yell just as loud as it was in 1983.
There ain't no Johnny coming home to share a bed with her and she doesnt care.
No mother ever dreams that her daughters going to grow up to be a junkie.
No mother ever dreams that her daughters going to grow up to sleep alone.
If she had to live it all over again you know she wouldnt change anything for the world.
adrenaline
anger filling my veins to the very core. a feeling so strong that you feel like you could bust through a wall at any point. sitting still feels like a chore in its self. when no one gets how you feel and loves to watch you scramble in desperation. no situation taken lightly. words find it hard to make it past your lips. a plunge they have been preparing for forever, but when the time comes they have trouble making it to your tongue, through your teeth and out for their exiting line. i cant hardly look him in the eye to tell him how much this hurts.
a boy to love
have you ever loved someone so much that it scares you? to have so much to loose is a nauseating thing. i hold him as tight as i can in hopes that someday he wont see what everyone else sees. a pointless girl with nothing to offer. sometimes i just look at him when he isnt paying any attention to me and just think to myself, "why the hell did he pick me?, what is so special about me that he wants to spend time with me?, and how the fuck did i get so lucky?" i am writing to you as a girl that has had shit for friends and boyfriends that were only good to me when i scored some good pills. ive had shit and ive had the best. and let me tell you dont ever settle for shit. dont waste your time on the ones that dont matter, but spend every waking moment with the ones that do.
a name just like yours
have you ever wondered that the person you hate the most just so happens to be just like you. that maybe this person has found what you have found and has found it to be just as distasteful. maybe you hate this person because you are reminded of yourself every time you look at them. and maybe them likewise. they are reminded of the failure they have become and the uncertain truth that lies behind your very teeth. the very thing you loathe the most is yourself. maybe this person is exactly what you have been looking for. someone who gets your pain and happiness all at the same time. a swinging pendulum of emotion. a mimic of the very heart ache that haunts your day to day commercial free life.
maybe im not done being angry
i find it harder and harder to let go of my past. one i was not yet willing to part with. to hang up my patch infested vest and put aside my boot's. stash away my bullet belts and mini-skirts with holes. to stop the pain killers and all night beer fest's of irish drunkenness. maybe i wasnt ready to become who i am... nobody asked me you know. i miss being a cheerleader at the tattoo parlors and the 4a.m. phone calls. i miss the smells, the taste the fuck-off life style. maybe im not done being angry. maybe i still have things to loathe. maybe im not ready to accept the world and the way it is. maybe i just dont like the person i've become. if the old me met the me now i would beat the shit out of myself. i miss smashing beer bottles and pounding down whiskey. i miss nights that i cant remember all of what has happened. i miss being around alcoholics and knowing that we were all never going to be enough for anyone. it wasnt much of a life but it was mine. i created it and i thrived off of it. im not good enough for the lifestyle i have now. im just a pissed off irish punk hiding behind this fake facade of normality. i've lost everything i grew to know and love and for what?...so i can fit in with society. maybe society should fit in with me.
All We Have Is This Street Noise
take it back but not too far. start a fight but keep it calm. now raise him up but not too high. start to sweat but keep it dry. pull him close but not too much. push them back but not too hard. cut it open but not too deep. shed a tear but not too many. scream his name but not too loud. understand but please dont care. dont break his nose but make him bleed. have a heart but hate the lies. pop a pill but do not die. they look so different but they're the same!
Great Dizzy Dane Cook
Yeah I agree. Although, girls are cool to talk to only
to get a different perspective...you know. Like you,
you're cool to talk to. The psyche is different that's
fo sho. Yeah I'm happy for now...where later will lead
to is not for certain though. I hope things go well
with you. Remember now that you're still young.
posted 3 week ago
Great Dizzy Dane Cook
Well that's awesome you are happy...I'm glad in being
single because I just can't settle right now. I'm still
trying to get some things straight. Yeah I have my eye
on a few but girls in my opinion play to many
games...in other words I don't want any bullshit...so
I'm like a free floater whatever happens happens but as
of now I'm content. Dude did ya say you were from
Alabama...I'm sorry it's been awhile
posted Jun 21
reverend trash
been busy puttin my new band together. How r You? Check
out my myspace myspace.com/kill_trash
posted Jun 16
Great Dizzy Dane Cook
Well that's awesome you guys are together and if things
are meant to be...then they will happen. As long as you
are happy and vice versa...how long you guys been at it
now? Well summer is summer and I'm workin' a lot. I
can't wait to get back into school. Welp not seein'
anyone yet...just talking really but I'm not really
serious about a relationship just biding time...ha!
posted Jun 14
Great Dizzy Dane Cook
Oh man I'm good actually. My family's moving closer to
where I'm headed back to school. It's nuts. I've
learned that time is really odd. Dude what's been up
with you. I haven't been on here in awhile...in fact so
long that I forgot my password. Hey if I don't come on
here email me at jonathan.jennings@usm.edu. So how are
ya and the dude coming?
posted Jun 03
Great Dizzy Dane Cook
Glad ya understand. I do feel like talking though. I
believe ya get more out of talking to someone than
typing. Ya know the tone and shit is different. But
hey, that\'s my cell #. I don\'t have yours but if ya
call I\'ll answer. Yeah things are getting better
though. It\'s just odd how some things turn out,
unexpectedly ya kno?
posted Feb 05
Great Dizzy Dane Cook
Hey I\'m sorry I haven\'t responded to your comment. I
am extremely busy. My number though is 601-664-8397. If
you give me number I swear I will call. Again I\'m very
sorry, I just have way too much going on. Please don\'t
be mad.
posted Feb 04
Great Dizzy Dane Cook
Yeah sure no problem. I\'m sorry about that. It was
personal. Hey sorry for responding so long. I hope
everything is going fine though. Do you have any other
thoughts though? I would like to give some more advice
if ya need any. How was your day?
posted Jan 14