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missing those who were there

It really sucks to be me this year. I have lost a total of three people that were close to me. It all started this past summer. I just got out of school i was so amped to sleep all summer. I got to lay around my house for about a month. Then my mother started to tell me that my great-grandma was sick. She said" Grandma has shingles and chickenpox". I had no clue what shingles was but i knew chickenpox was just a minor detail. I just forgot for a moment that she was 94 years old. So her body couldnt fight the disease as easily as a younger body. I was then told that it was just a waiting, fighting, and praying period of time. My great-grandma passed after a week of fighting the diseases. So i had to travel down to South Carolina from Maryland for the funeral. For some weird reason i felt sad in my hear but i couldnt really cry it out. She was a great woman of god and lived her life justly she will be missed by many forgotten by none. So after i came back i was relieved to be home finally and sleep in my own bed. Then about a week and a half later i heard a friend of the family we called Ms. Chris had passed away. Yet again i felt sad in my heart but i could not cry for some reason. So i had to go to my Grandma's church in MD. The service lasted for about an hour then we went home because we didnt want to see her buried. After that maybe a week or so i had the most realist dream ever i remember my great-grandma was just hugging me standing there like it was her goodbye to me. Then a few weeks ago i was on the phone talking to one of my best friends and i broke down. I cried about losing my great-grandma it felt like it was easy to let her go. The last but not least person i lost was my aunt to brain cancer. It happened September 10 on a Sunday at noon. My aunt was like my second mother and it was so hard to let her go. I remember going to the hospice to see the rest of my family. I was silent the entire ride up there. My dad and i picked up my mom from church to go there. Then we got there i remember hugging my uncle and cousin then i cried while hugging my cousin. I broke down so hard i was just crying most of the time i was there but could see she was finally at rest and peaceful. So i stopped crying then i saw all of my aunts and uncles there for the first time in my life. It was so beautiful to see all of my father's family gathered to remember there lost sister. All three of these ladies have effected my life and i will carry a piece of each of them in my heart because they have made me who i am today.

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