I've got to be dreaming
Posted August 18, 2006
I posted this on myspace a few days ago after my co-workers forgot I existed. They left me behind. I was being really emo the rest of the day. (I no longer have a myspace btw):
After they left me, I felt so sad, and I couldn't feel better all day.
As I was at the party last night, I felt unusually thoughtful, and could not get the previous events of the day out of my head.
I thought to myself:
Why'd that have to happen? Why was I left?
And the song echoed in my head:
Held captive, Im a prisoner
In the back room where the water leaks, and Im oh, so cold
Am I really that horrible to be around?
Under my desk, this can't be it
Ive got to be dreaming.
Ive got to be dreaming
Calm down, there are worse things in life
Just let the water calm you this time.
Its all around you
But what if I am weird
What if I do isolate myself?
Oh, My God
Oh, My God
I hate the me that I've become
I need to talk to someone about this, it is upsetting me
But how could I
How could I talk to someone about this?
This was the first time I didn't say enough
This was the only time, I kept it close enough
I dont want that .
I've got to be dreaming
It was interesting to me how the songs made what I was going through easier (that sounds like it was a great tragedy, it wasn't, but it did make me sad).
*All words in italics are lyrics by UnderOATH from the songs A Moment Suspended in Time or Moving for the Sake of Motion.
