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This world

ok this world is so messed up, when i dont have anything to do [all the time] i think about the way thing could have turned out for me, yeah i know you're probably thinking ( oh she had man-trouble before and she thinks her life is horrible) then it shows how much you know.. I enjoy meeting new people, so i don't let too many get close enough to hurt me therefore, I don't get all in a tizzy if something hapens.. well i think about what my life would be like if my father gave two shits, or my mother wouldn't have died, and what i would be if i haven't moved from home to home all my life. then thats when i think (maybe i could be normal).. and the people i call my friends really are. its kinda like i kid myself over this stupid fanticy of a life that i personally wouldnt mind to have. I guess now i really know that its not in the cards for me, i guess it just makes me believe in gods wonders a little more. something happened to me last weekend, my sister. my sister who i never talk to hurt me. she gave me that kind of hope, to see her (which i never do) and without caring or knowing she just killed all my hopes inside, but i guess i really didnt matter.. huh... she got what she wanted she got to be with her boyfriend.. so this is all good.. yeah i forgive.. but i wont ever forget how much it hurts... never..

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