- Listener
NACHAN
we'll i love listening to music..i like searching new sound for my ears, i listen to many kinds of music i appreciate almost all kinds of genres..hehe..listen to music, i think its my comfort zone! i sign up here to listen to different music, different band with different personalities.. i search and appreciate....
holiday vacation is over
holiday vacation is now over
school days are coming
today i didn't go to school, i dont feel like going yet..i think i never really like going to school specially this sem for some unknown reason i get tired of going to class. i felt that im in a cage..no freedom at all. im thinking an i suppost to feel like this at mg 2nd year at college..? i dont feel so haappy attending school and doing things that seems to not suit me..but what is it really that i like? i dont know either.
im lost.
im feeling that as years passing by im wasting my time..
i dont know what to do, dont have a goal, im so lazy, im such useless, cant prove anything cause i cant to anything..im such a weakling. im afraid of the world in front of me...i have a lot of dreams and im scared to be a failure.
im sick of school....the school rules, the pressure, the competition, the frustration, the efforts going to waste, the expectation. im getting tired of my college life...am i supposed to continue studying because it is a must have..a college degree.
exploring
i want to explore the world, thats my dream
i want to experience so many things!!
i want to live my life to the fullest w/o any regrets
people will always say that you still have a lot of time your so young
but who knows when will your time will come.
i maybe still young now..but i still can die early,
i want to do a lot of things..
i want to know whats my purpose, why am i alive?
i grew up in a conservative family.
im a girl..a very sensitive one. i know why parents have been strict to us for good reason..
i understand them and im proud on them by being my parents. But there's a lot
missing in my life....i want to look for it.. but how can i when im stuck with college life.
i thought i will enjoy being a college student..because it will show that im growing
but how can i grow there when things are all written in a rules. obeying this obeying that..
where is the freedom....how can you look for yourself, how can you find individuality in such
a small place..you wake up everyday , see and do the same thing. your learning but not experiencing. i want to experience and explore life not through books and rules.. i want to feel alive! i want to achieve something outside the university...i dont feel anything when i get good grade or do something great in school...i dont want to feel frustrated to a lesson that dont interest me and something that can fail me.
i want to live my life freely and carelessly
dont want to be an adult that cant to anything so freely
