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I WANT
Posted August 23 | Leave a Comment
I WANNA FEEL I WANNA KNOW YOU ARE REAL I WANNA BREATHE I WANNA OPEN UP MY EYES SO I CAN SEE I WANNA BE EVERYTHING YOU WANT ME TO BE I WANNA LIVE A LIFE WITHOUT SADNESS I NEVER WANNA LIVE TO SEE A LONLEY DAY I WANNA LIVE EVERYDAY SEEING YOUR FACE I WANNA SEE EVERYTHING THERE IS TO SEE I WANNA TASTE EVERYTHING THERE IS TO TASTE I WANNA DRINK WITH GOOD FRIENDS I WANNA DANCE NAKED UNDER A WATER FALL I WANT YOU TO BE THERE WITH ME THROUGH IT ALL ~lyre~ read more
waiting
Posted August 19 | Leave a Comment
waiting for the next big break waiting for the next fallout waiting for the next exciting thing waiting for a time to kick back waiting for a time to cry waiting for a time to scream waiting for your next true love waiting for your next breakup waiting for something that seems to never come waiting for somethng that comes all to soon always waiting for something when it comes its over all too quickly then its on to the next time is of the essence no concept no reason no rhyme years pass in s… read more
I SMELL SEX AND CANDY (poem)
Posted August 19 | Leave a Comment
SLIDE WHILE I LYE ON MY KITCHEN FLOOR WATCHING AS THE PRETTY COLOR EXPANDS I SMELL SEX AND CANDY PLAYING IN MY HEAD ARCH, HIPS, FINGERS TONGUE,LIPS, TOUCH TASTE SIGHT, SOUND MOVE FROM THE BED TO THE GROUND PAIN, PLEASURE ONE IN THE SAME SPREAD FACE DOWN ON THE GROUND FORCE RESISTANCE "DON'T MAKE A FUCKING SOUND!" BLADE COOL ACROSS MY NECK STING FOLLOWED BY WET SENSATION PANTING CRAWL ACROSS THE FLOOR, NO WAY OUT LOCKED DOOR BLOOD, MASCARA,APPLE BACARDI AND CUM HOPING THAT HE'S DONE BRUISES… read more
purple gaze
Posted August 15 | Leave a Comment
ONE DAY I WILL NOT BE HERE TO CAST THE PURPLE GAZE CONFUSION, FRUSTRATION NOT KNOWING WHERE TO TURN CUT MY WRIST SO I BLEED OUT MY EMOTIONS DRAINING FROM MY SOUL ESCAPE FROM THE HAUNTING NEVER CEASING WITHOUT HARMONY SO FAR AWAY FR HAVE A BAD DAY NOTHING TO LOOSE SO NOTHING TO TAKE RIGHT DECISONS MAKE WRONG ASSUMPTIONS I SEE YOU STANDING THERE SO FAR FROM WHERE YOU OUGHT TO BE WHERE SHE LYES I KNOW SHES NEVER BEEN PAST GENERATIONS SO MUCH STRONGER EVIL TOO WIDE OPEN SPACES WITH EYES WI… read more
LETS GET FUCKED UP AND THEN GET LAID
Posted August 15 | Leave a Comment
JUST ANOTHER GIRL IN A SMALL ASS TOWN SO FUCKED UP AND SO FAR DOWN LOOKING AT HER LIFE ASKING WHAT WENT WRONG? LISTEN TO ME AS I SING THIS SONG THERES NO RAIN TODAY EVERONE SAYS "I JUST GOT PAID" THERES NO RAIN TODAY "LETS GET FUCKED UP" "AND THEN GET LAID" SO SHE TRAVELS THE STREETS LOOKING FOR A GOOD TIME MEETS HER FRIENDS THEY ALL GOTTA DIME ITS GONNA BE A WILD NIGHT THERES NO RAIN TODAY EVERYONE SAYS "I JUST PAID" THERES NO RAIN TODAY "LETS GET FUCKED UP" "AND THEN GET LAID" SHE WAKES… read more
FOREVER
Posted August 14 | Leave a Comment
FOR ALL MY SARROWS AND WOES FOR ALL MY TRAVELING COMPANIONS FOR ALL MY TORMENT AND SUFFERING I END UP ALONE IT BEGINS ALONE AND ENDS ALONE FOR WHAT I HAVE SAID FOR WHAT I HAD NOT SAID FOR WHAT I LONG TO SEE… read more
HEROIN
Posted August 13 | Leave a Comment
LIFE IS WORTH A DOLLAR BUT YOU ONLY GET A DIME SOUL TURNS SICK AND TWISTED WITH TIME PICTURES AND THOUGHTS DISTORTED CLOUDS THE MIND WITH A THICK LAYER OF SLIME NO MORALS NO VALUES ONE REASON FOR LIVING HIT THE SIDEWALK RUNNING CAUSE YOU RAN OUT OF TIME UNEMPLOYMENT NOW YOUR AT THE END OF THE LINE FEELS LIKE YOUR ON SKID ROW YOU START SMOKING WEED NOW YOUR ADDICTED TO BLOW SHOT AFTER SHOT AFTER SHOT TO DROWN YOUR SARROWS AND KILL THE PAIN KISS KISS BANG BANG DESERT EAGLE RIGHT BETWEEN THE… read more
BOX OF TEARS (POEM)
Posted August 13 | Leave a Comment
FEAR AND LOATHING FOR SO MANY YEARS THE PAIN AN THE SADNESS HANGING OVER YOUR HEAD LIKE A FEELING OF THE DEAD LOOKING OUT AMOUNG THE BLANK FACES LOOKING FOR YOUR OWN TEARS TURN BLACK AS THEY FALL FROM YOUR EYES HIDE THEM AWAY IN A BOX TO FORGET ALL THE TIMES YOU WEPT THE BOX IS NEVER EMPTY THE BOX IS NEVER FULL ITS CONTENCE ONLY KNOWN TO YOU IS YOUR TEARS AND YOUR SOUL CRY OUT WHEN ONLY THE NIGHT HEARS AND ONLY THE DARKNESS IS WITNESS TO YOUR TEARS ICY BREATH OF DEATH ON… read more
BIRD IN THE GILDED CAGE
Posted August 13 | Leave a Comment
WHY DON'T YOU SING ANYMORE? WHERE IS YOUR VOICE? WHY IS ALL THE LIGHT GONE FROM YOUR EYES? WHY ARE YOU IN THIS CAGE? DO YOU NOT HAVE A CHOICE? WHY ARE YOUR FEATHERS SO DULL AND COLORLESS? WHY DO YOU MOVE AS IF YOU WERE LIFELESS? WHY DO YOU CALL OUT INTO THE NIGHT? WHY DO YOU CRY IS IT FROM FRIGHT? I'LL LOVE YOU CLOSE AND HOLD YOU TIGHT I'LL BRING YOU FROM THE DARKNESS INTO THE LIGHT I WILL HELP YOU ESCAPE INTO THE NIGHT AND ONCE AGAIN HELP YOU TO FLY ~lyre~ read more
30 days........now what?
Posted August 10 | Leave a Comment
30 days 30 days without poison 30 days without blackness 30 days without strange sex 30 days clean and sober 30 days living off nicotine and caffine 30 days of my thoughts 30 days of feelings 30 days without being numb 30 days of clear thought 30 days of dts 30 days of shivering 30 days of memory of the night before 30 days without strange guys 30 days without my friends 30 days of getting my shit together 30 days? now what? i did what was asked now what do i do? read more
DAY OLD TOCOBELL MAKES FOR A REALLY FUCKED UP DAY(POEM)
Posted August 2 | Leave a Comment
THIS DAY WAS SO FUCKED UP AND I FEEL LIKE I AM SO FUCKING WHINNY, PLEASE TELL ME TO SHUT THE FUCK UP BY ALL FUCKING MEANS DO IT,SO WE SWING BY TOCOBELL AND PICK UP SOME FOOD I GET TO MY HOUSE AND I SET IT DOWN RIGHT, I GO TO PICK UP THE BAG AFTER A FEW MINS AND I START EATING IT, IT WAS SO FUCKING GROSS IT WAS ALL STALE AND THE SOUR CREAM ON MY SOFT TOCO WAS LIKE TOTALLY SPOILED, WELL WHAT I DID WAS I PICKED UP AN OLDER BAG THAT WAS FROM THE NIGHT BEFORE SO FUCKING SICK, MADE ME SO FUCKING SIC… read more
SOMETIMES (POEM)
Posted July 31 | Leave a Comment
~SOMETIMES I FEEL SO SUFFOCATED~ ~SOMETIMES I FEEL SO DEGRADED~ ~SOMETIMES LIFE TAKES ME WHERE I DON'T WANNA BE~ ~SOMETIMES LIFE GIVES ME EXACTLY WHAT I NEED~ ~SOMETIMES IT GIVES WAY UNDER MY FEET~ ~SOMETIMES IT LIFTS ME UP BEYOND DEFEAT~ ~SOMETIMES PEOPLE COME IN AND OUT~ ~SOMETIMES PEOPLE STAY AND START TO SCREAM~ ~SOMETIMES I AM IN A SERENE PLACE~ ~SOMETIMES I FEEL MY IDENTITY HAS BEEN ERASED~ ~SOMETIMES I LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND I HAVE NO FACE ~SOMETIMES I GO TO SLEEP WITH SUCH A HAPPY FEE… read more
My family,
Posted July 26 | Leave a Comment
i am suppose to go and talk with my biological dad on thursday, which means i am going to be alone and the truth is going to escape about this whole cluster fuck, and well, i have had it better living with strangers and being on my own (to me anyway it seems that way) but i am able to do all the things my self without holding me back or holding me up, i am saving for a tattoo that i have thought about for 2 years and its not something that is stupid, its ART, i talked to the woman who did my… read more
TAKEN
Posted July 24 | Leave a Comment
~DREAM FEELS LIKE REALITY~ ~REALITY FEELS LIKE DREAM~ ~I CAN STILL HEAR HER SCREAM AND CRY IN MY MIND~ ~HER TEAR STREAKED FACE~ ~HER HEAD ON THE GROUND~ ~THEN ALL WAS SILENT~ ~FROZEN BY HORROR~ ~CONSUMED BY FEAR~ ~NO ONE ELSE WOULD LISTEN~ ~NO ONE ELSE COULD HEAR~ ~SUCH A HORRIABLE, HEAVY BURDEN~ ~ON SUCH A FRAGILE MIND~ ~HER INNOCENCE TAKEN~ ~HER TRUST BETRAYED~ ~NO LONGER A CHILD~ ~NO LONGER SAFE~ ~AND ALWAYS AFRAID~ ~~~~ this is about a dream i had, my sister was raped and i couldn't do an… read more
