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Arrowbear Lake, CA
Rollercoaster Life
So, it's been about 2 years since I've been on this website. I graduated High School, started college, then fucked everything up. I starting hanging out with "bad" people, that did very bad things. I'm not one for peer pressure, I don't let other people control my decisions, but I figured, I'll try anything once. Yeah, one time is all it takes to have your life spiral out of control, leaving you in the dust. I was left confused, skinny as a motherfucker, and changed forever. No, I have not made the best decisions and I will have to live and learn from them. It's the only thing you can do especially when you can't sleep at night because you have haunting flashbacks of a person you didn't know but used to be. Now, almost a year later, I've made the best decision of my life. I'm clean. Clean from the drama, the lies, the loneliness, the late dark nights of walking, the endless drugs that had clogged my thoughts and memory. I'm clean from it all. I never expected it to be so painful. It looks easy, but is not. It's easier to do the drugs, then to stop yourself from doing them. I started dating this guy and he used too. So we went to Camden, one night, to cop some stuff. Well, it took over 3 hours to find someone that actually had something decent. I was never one for a needle. They freak me the fuck out, but my boyfriend is in love with it. So, we got a couple bags and split them. I watched as we both turned into monsters. It was the most horrible high I've ever had. He couldn't catch his breath, his heart was pounding and he couldn't speak. You never forget the way you feel after you almost lose someone you love. But if it wasn't for him almost dying and me having to bring him back to life, I would have never had a bad high. And I would have never quit. We are still seeing each other, and not using. It was really hard the first couple of days. And I had utter the five words that every drug-addict speaks at least once in their lives, "I just want to die". And I honestly thought I would without it. But here I am. Some of you might not understand where I'm coming from with this entry, or you think you do but have no idea because you've never touched a drug in your life but have seen it on t.v or whatever. But to those who have been through what I have, and are clean now. Stay strong. This will be one of the most satisfying things you'll ever do in your life. And if you fuck you, you have to start back from scratch and who wants the aches and pains of "kicking the habit". And to those who are still full pledged drug-addicts, I hope one day you will realize, there is life after drugs. If you don't know how to quit, or are struggling to stay clean, just lock yourself in your room. Thats what I did. It was the only way I could keep myself from slipping out my front door and disappearing for a couple days. Just know, that if you leave that room, you'll never be the same. And I know the glamor of drugs. They're so cool. I love being high. Because I fucking do. I love getting high. I love the adventure it takes me on. But for now, that adventure, that roller coaster has come to a halt.
Sushi Roll
I've had this thing for a couple weeks now. It's awesome. Although, when I go into my playlist, click a song and play it, it doesn't play. It will load completely, and then won't play. Weird. I hung with Catherine and Michelle yesterday. It was awesome. I didn't think my lungs were going to work today. I only have 6 days left of school. It's great. This summer is going to be amazing. KBye.
TheronRogers
Hey!If you like Dashboard Confessional then you might
like my stuff. Check it out
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you think. Thanks, Theron
posted Jul 14
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posted Aug 18
to.the.sea
hey, i\'m alright, just a bit tired. you have pretty
good taste in music.
posted Jul 31
to.the.sea
hey, how\'s it going? you\'re pretty =]
posted Jul 26
Matthewof1979
i add you on myspace if that ok.
posted Jun 15