RIP Uncle Roger....
Posted September 9, 2006
lately, ive been going places, and everywhere i look, i see my uncle...or at least i think i do. last wednsday i went to a haunted house meeting, and our big boss, John, was talking to everyone and i was staring at him really hard and i started crying and one of the Jaycees/my friend just hugged me when i was like..."He looks like my uncle..." and the tears started to fall.
i had to walk away.
idk. i miss him so fucking much. my aunt was telling my mom she was looking for something of his to give me...and my mom told her that a big picture of him in a frame would probly be enuff. and i think it will be...but i want one of his shirts. and the teddy bear i gave him for a little bit one time when he was in the hospital is still on their bed. ::starts to cry alot::
i miss him so much....and its hitting me finally that im not gonna be able to go to my aunts house and see him sitting in his chair...w/o crying. the day of the funeral i layed down in front of it and fell asleep and got mad at everyone who kept sitting in it.
i want to see him. i want to hug him. i wanna hear him laugh again. i wanna see him smile again. i wanna hear another smart ass remark of his...and i cant bring myself to go to his grave. i know i'd lose it there. i mean...i watched them put him in the ground.
i cant even listen to I CAN ONLY IMAGINE anymore without breaking down. bc then i just go back to that room when i was standing infront of all my family and looking over at him in that casket as i signed that song. then walking over to my aunt and grammaw crying so bad i had to be held up and hugging them as they told me thank you.
i cant believe he really is gone. i didnt even get to say goodbye. i didnt get to hug him. i didnt get to tell him i love him. i didnt get to feel him pat my leg really hard like he always did....
i would give up everything just to have him ask me again...like he has my entire life..."What do you like more...Boys? or Watermelon?"
he's asked me that same question for as long as i can remember...and everytime...it was always the same answer...watermelon...
I miss you uncle roger...i miss you so much.
<3 Always....
Amber Petriece....
or as u always called me...
ur little roadilen red.
"I would Be Crying Tears Of Laughter...If I could See You Smile again..."
I know your life on earth was troubled
And only you could know the pain
You weren't afraid to face the devil
You were no stranger to the rain
Go rest high on that mountain
Son your work on earth is done
Go to heaven a-shoutin'
Love for the Father and the Son
Oh, how we cried the day you left us
We gathered round your grave to grieve
Wish I could see the angels' faces
When they hear your sweet voice sing
Go rest high on that mountain
Son, your work on earth is done
Go to heaven a-shoutin'
Love for the Father and the Son.
Go rest high on that mountain
Son, your work on earth is done
Go to heaven a-shoutin'
Love for the Father and the Son.
