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where did i go wrong?...

i heard this song the other day for the first time and cried like a baby.i thought of matt and all the shit we talked about the night we started to get REALLY close when i was 15. and i thought of talking to my friends about how they were hurting inside and talking a few of them outta killing themselves. holding them as they cried and looking at the marks on there arms. then i thought about lindsey alot...my best friend when i was 8 that did it and i couldnt stop her. i mean the last time i talked to her we got in a fight about her wanting to kill herself. so yah...i love this song.



THE FRAY

"How To Save A Life"

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down its just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things youve told him all along
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones youve followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or hell say hes just not the same
And youll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life





<3 Amber Petriece

RIP Lindsey, Matt, Brad, and all those who left us

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sammi jo

y'know whats weird? ever since i broke up w/ sammi almost a year ago...no matter what...my mind goes back to her.

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RIP Uncle Roger....

lately, ive been going places, and everywhere i look, i see my uncle...or at least i think i do. last wednsday i went to a haunted house meeting, and our big boss, John, was talking to everyone and i was staring at him really hard and i started crying and one of the Jaycees/my friend just hugged me when i was like..."He looks like my uncle..." and the tears started to fall.

i had to walk away.

idk. i miss him so fucking much. my aunt was telling my mom she was looking for something of his to give me...and my mom told her that a big picture of him in a frame would probly be enuff. and i think it will be...but i want one of his shirts. and the teddy bear i gave him for a little bit one time when he was in the hospital is still on their bed. ::starts to cry alot::

i miss him so much....and its hitting me finally that im not gonna be able to go to my aunts house and see him sitting in his chair...w/o crying. the day of the funeral i layed down in front of it and fell asleep and got mad at everyone who kept sitting in it.

i want to see him. i want to hug him. i wanna hear him laugh again. i wanna see him smile again. i wanna hear another smart ass remark of his...and i cant bring myself to go to his grave. i know i'd lose it there. i mean...i watched them put him in the ground.

i cant even listen to I CAN ONLY IMAGINE anymore without breaking down. bc then i just go back to that room when i was standing infront of all my family and looking over at him in that casket as i signed that song. then walking over to my aunt and grammaw crying so bad i had to be held up and hugging them as they told me thank you.

i cant believe he really is gone. i didnt even get to say goodbye. i didnt get to hug him. i didnt get to tell him i love him. i didnt get to feel him pat my leg really hard like he always did....


i would give up everything just to have him ask me again...like he has my entire life..."What do you like more...Boys? or Watermelon?"

he's asked me that same question for as long as i can remember...and everytime...it was always the same answer...watermelon...


I miss you uncle roger...i miss you so much.

<3 Always....

Amber Petriece....

or as u always called me...

ur little roadilen red.

"I would Be Crying Tears Of Laughter...If I could See You Smile again..."

GO REST HIGH ON THAT MOUNTAIN
I know your life on earth was troubled
And only you could know the pain
You weren't afraid to face the devil
You were no stranger to the rain

Go rest high on that mountain
Son your work on earth is done
Go to heaven a-shoutin'
Love for the Father and the Son

Oh, how we cried the day you left us
We gathered round your grave to grieve
Wish I could see the angels' faces
When they hear your sweet voice sing

Go rest high on that mountain
Son, your work on earth is done
Go to heaven a-shoutin'
Love for the Father and the Son.

Go rest high on that mountain
Son, your work on earth is done
Go to heaven a-shoutin'
Love for the Father and the Son.

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Ally....

I Miss Ally....ALOT




The Last Song Ever


I wish my life was this song
cause songs they never die
I could write for years and years
and never have to cry Id show u how I feel
with out saying a word
I could rap up both are hearts
I no it sounds absurd

and i saw the tears on ur face
i shot u down and i slammed the door
but couldnt make a sound
so please stay sweet my dear
dont hate me now
i cant tell how this last song ends

the way that i feel tonight so down so down i pray i can swim just so i wont drown and the waves that crash over me i am gasping for air take my hand so i can breath as i write this last song down

and i saw the tears on ur face i shot u down
and i slammed the door but couldnt make a sound
so please stay sweet my dear
dont hate me now
i cant tell how this last song ends

the broken glass ..... your moistened skin
was everything was everything

and your broken voice ..... was quivering
your everything your everything

scream at me make it the best i ever heard
laugh out loud i no it sounds absurd

scream at me make it the best i ever heard
your everything your everything

heart beats slowing pains are growing
does she love you thats worth knowing

heart beats slowing pains are growing
does she love you thats worth knowing

Yeaaaaaaa!!!!!

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RIP-Skipper

today was skipper's funeral. i was okay til I CAN ONLY IMAGINE came on. im starting to realize more and more everyday that u should tell the people u love and care about how u feel and how much they mean to you.

you never know when u or them are gonna be gone.

RIP-Skipper.

<3 Amber Petriece

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