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LINDSAYSCARESTHEDEAD
Age: 17
Joined On: May 28, 2006
Occupation: artist
SassyVamp
fucksville, ohio
aironBRUER
Valdosta, Geogia
sickness
this is kinda a diary enetery so if you don't want to read what i have to say, than leave..... thanks
so yeah.... basically i feel fucking terrible. im a horrible friend.
im supposed to look out for you, im sorry im not doing my job.
im suppposed to turn you away from things that might hurt you
but insted i just let you go. im sorry.
jesus, i don't want to feel like this anymore, i should go get you
but i don't think i'll have the courage. i want to let you have fun, but im fucking scared here, worried for life, but not mine.
im not trying to be a parental figure im just saying that i want you to be safe, and i worry about you,............. jesus am i ever worried.
fuck..... i can't wait till you come home.
till i know your okay, i won't be alright.
this pill dosen't help ethier. maybe it is making me paranoid, maybe my gut feeling is right.
my heart is racing........ help.
"you have no reason to be worried. i'll be alright, i promise."
im just afriad of what could happen............ i can't lose you.
i love you.
come home safe.
please
im NOT a van Gogh case
im dropping HA
cause im a lazy bum
sad? yes,... yes it is
don't you wish people had more confedince in you?
" you'll be dead before you become a famous artist."
Picasso was still alive and famous?
what about Dali?
Matisse?
errg,
are they famous? yes
did they sell paintings and drawings while still alive? yes
did they INSPIRE other artists? YES
granted there have been the occasional van Gogh cases,
but whos to say that i won't be one of the great living legends?
.............
i'll tell you im over it, but im not.
you may not have ment it that way, but thats how i took it.
i'll tell myself that i don't care what you think, but i do.
and even though you tell me you support me and my dreams, i'll always feel like you have doubts in me
aironBRUER
merry new year...
posted Jan 07
aironBRUER
oh, i know that, being quite white myself... still,
i\'d rather be scary white than dead pale... it
doesn\'t help that i don\'t like sunscreen, though...
posted Dec 18
aironBRUER
who told you that? i\'m sure the dead would prefer
your looks to their own...
posted Dec 09
aironBRUER
why do you scare the dead?
posted Dec 05
WillyYIrishGuy
Ah, well, you know, just the daily grind. I trying to
figure out a way to get free money, a driver\'s
license, a car, and some sordid other stuff...you?
posted Nov 28
WillyYIrishGuy
Hey, hey, hey, hows it goin\'?
posted Nov 05
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posted Jul 11